Story Never been happy a day in my life

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

Come to think of it, I can't recall a single day in my entire pathetic excuse for a "life" where I've been happy. The last semblance of happiness was in 8th grade where I had several fake normie friends who ghosted me every chance they got and stopped talking to me altogether after a while. It hurts to remember how I was once a naive child with dreams of having a wife and 2 kids, I fell for the bullshit Hollywood lies they sold all of us as kids. The delusion that we'd ever have that....
It hurts knowing how much hope and optimism I had as a kid, before reality came crashing down and I was confronted with the horrifying coldness of my fate. There is nothing. There is literally nothing ahead, nothing lies ahead of me in my future other than a 9mm pointed at my skull. No afterlife, no loving God (if he's real he keeps me around for his sick entertainment), no friends, no true unconditional love from anyone. I don't think I wanna bother with copes, I'm not gonna handle another 5 years of this existence, let alone living as an elderly incel. Many animals in the wild never find a mate, why would it be any different in humans? That last part is something ITfags won't acknowledge. If these were ancient prehistoric times I'd be killed as a baby for being the subhuman runt of the litter, little runtoid POS incapable of living a fulfilled life.

 

[BataviaCel]

just rope

 

[PersonalityChad]

I was happy on the day when Le Blumpf won in 2016. All the crying and bitching from liberals everywhere was fucking hilarious to watch lmao. Even some of my uni professors were asshurt.

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

not if you went NIGMODE
View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kHhcjgISF_A

This that ooga booga streamer right

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

just rope

Of course I will, i need to wageslavemax for a while until I can afford a gun and I'm also waiting for a couple old ass dying family members to finally kick the bucket.

 

[BataviaCel]

Of course I will, i need to wageslavemax for a while until I can afford a gun and I'm also waiting for a couple old ass dying family members to finally kick the bucket.

cool bro, gun is fast and painless

 

[senses fail]

what do you think you could do tomorrow that would bring you happiness. Even if its unobtainable, what would make you actually happy? I am trying to focus on the small things in life that bring me pleasure. Its hard but if I look big picture i feel sick to my stomach. Like if i think about how i got to miss out on young love, I will never have a girl to lie down with and watch a netflix series like a normie. I dont get the same things they do, so I feel terrible every single day I go it alone.

I take drugs to bring some peace of mind, listen to music that can make me feel different or play some vidya online and do pretty well I feel good for a bit. Sometimes shit can turn and you gotta know when to stop before you get worse. Idk brocel try to find something that makes you smile that you like to do.

I was happy on the day when Le Blumpf won in 2016. All the crying and bitching from liberals everywhere was fucking hilarious to watch lmao. Even some of my uni professors were asshurt.

dude the night blonald drumpf won so many faggots in my dorm were crying and screaming in the halls. Some girl came out of her dorm room and said, can you guys please shut the fuck up, I have class in the morning
next morning im in class, the same foid who was crying in the halls came to class late and was like "sorry im late, i was up all night crying" and the professor allowed that excuse jfl. funny nonetheless

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

cool bro, gun is fast and painless

Yes, back in 2021 I was dead set on doing the helium tank method but I found out its not that guaranteed, I don't wanna wind up a braindead vegetable so I'll just end it properly, not like that one ricecel who blew half his face off by fucking up his own sui

 

[senses fail]

Of course I will, i need to wageslavemax for a while until I can afford a gun and I'm also waiting for a couple old ass dying family members to finally kick the bucket.

haha same nigga. waiting for my mom to go and then ill walk up a mountain and eat a bullet.

 

[PersonalityChad]

dude the night blonald drumpf won so many faggots in my dorm were crying and screaming in the halls. Some girl came out of her dorm room and said, can you guys please shut the fuck up, I have class in the morning
next morning im in class, the same foid who was crying in the halls came to class late and was like "sorry im late, i was up all night crying" and the professor allowed that excuse jfl. funny nonetheless

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

what do you think you could do tomorrow that would bring you happiness. Even if its unobtainable, what would make you actually happy? I am trying to focus on the small things in life that bring me pleasure. Its hard but if I look big picture i feel sick to my stomach. Like if i think about how i got to miss out on young love, I will never have a girl to lie down with and watch a netflix series like a normie. I dont get the same things they do, so I feel terrible every single day I go it alone.

I take drugs to bring some peace of mind, listen to music that can make me feel different or play some vidya online and do pretty well I feel good for a bit. Sometimes shit can turn and you gotta know when to stop before you get worse. Idk brocel try to find something that makes you smile that you like to do.

dude the night blonald drumpf won so many faggots in my dorm were crying and screaming in the halls. Some girl came out of her dorm room and said, can you guys please shut the fuck up, I have class in the morning
next morning im in class, the same foid who was crying in the halls came to class late and was like "sorry im late, i was up all night crying" and the professor allowed that excuse jfl. funny nonetheless

Fag coper, there is nothing. I am a monster through and through, fucking hideous deformed freak. If my mom truly loved me she'd have fulfilled a mother's mercy by smothering me with a pillow as a baby. There is no alternate timeline where I wind up a normal person, I was always gonna come to this place and eventually rope myself. Nothing worse than having nobody irl to vent to, got nobody that'll understand anyway. And if I express how I truly feel she'll immediately call 911 and have me put in a psych ward where I'll be stuffed with jewpills

 

[senses fail]

Fag coper, there is nothing. I am a monster through and through, fucking hideous deformed freak. If my mom truly loved me she'd have fulfilled a mother's mercy by smothering me with a pillow as a baby. There is no alternate timeline where I wind up a normal person, I was always gonna come to this place and eventually rope myself. Nothing worse than having nobody irl to vent to, got nobody that'll understand anyway. And if I express how I truly feel she'll immediately call 911 and have me put in a psych ward where I'll be stuffed with jewpills

just trying to help you find peace of mind but whatever dude just wallow in your own self pity

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

what do you think you could do tomorrow that would bring you happiness. Even if its unobtainable, what would make you actually happy? I am trying to focus on the small things in life that bring me pleasure. Its hard but if I look big picture i feel sick to my stomach. Like if i think about how i got to miss out on young love, I will never have a girl to lie down with and watch a netflix series like a normie. I dont get the same things they do, so I feel terrible every single day I go it alone.

I take drugs to bring some peace of mind, listen to music that can make me feel different or play some vidya online and do pretty well I feel good for a bit. Sometimes shit can turn and you gotta know when to stop before you get worse. Idk brocel try to find something that makes you smile that you like to do.

dude the night blonald drumpf won so many faggots in my dorm were crying and screaming in the halls. Some girl came out of her dorm room and said, can you guys please shut the fuck up, I have class in the morning
next morning im in class, the same foid who was crying in the halls came to class late and was like "sorry im late, i was up all night crying" and the professor allowed that excuse jfl. funny nonetheless

I have never felt happy, not one single fucking time my whole life. Temporary fleeting amusement from copes like movies and games and shit isn't happiness, laughing briefly at something only gives me a tiny respite from the crushing reality of my pathetic existence. I have a void filling in my body that cannot be filled, I feel sick to my stomach, getting that horrible feeling of anxiety and sudden fear of your fate which has already been sealed. I'm literally deformed bro, there's nothing I can do to cope. I'm not even normie tier, I thought I was and before today I thought my biggest problems were bad frame, pheno, being skinny and racially ambiguous but now I realize it's far worse.

 

[senses fail]

I have never felt happy, not one single fucking time my whole life. Temporary fleeting amusement from copes like movies and games and shit isn't happiness, laughing briefly at something only gives me a tiny respite from the crushing reality of my pathetic existence. I have a void filling in my body that cannot be filled, I feel sick to my stomach, getting that horrible feeling of anxiety and sudden fear of your fate which has already been sealed. I'm literally deformed bro, there's nothing I can do to cope. I'm not even normie tier, I thought I was and before today I thought my biggest problems were bad frame, pheno, being skinny and racially ambiguous but now I realize it's far worse.

hey buddy. you're on an incel forum for people who have been rejected and dejected from everyone in their entire life. You're not alone in this. I was in an accident that left me paralyzed. I get how you feel, but not when you treat your fellow incels like shit. We should try to help each other where we can because no one else does. Until this incel-eat-incel attitude is squashed then we'll never advance beyond self loathing and never ascend. I know what my goals are in life and I strive to be better for it. I tried helping you the way I knew how, you spurned my advice

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

just trying to help you find peace of mind but whatever dude just wallow in your own self pity

I'm gonna kill myself... nothing u or anyone else can do to help, the least u can do is just admit its bullshit and that life is hell and suffering for genetic trash like me. I've contemplated buddhistmonkmaxxing but this right here shattered any illusions of finding inner peace https://incels.is/threads/buddhist-...teenage-love-do-not-enter-if-suicidal.460180/

 

[senses fail]

I'm gonna kill myself... nothing u or anyone else can do to help, the least u can do is just admit its bullshit and that life is hell and suffering for genetic trash like me. I've contemplated buddhistmonkmaxxing but this right here shattered any illusions of finding inner peace https://incels.is/threads/buddhist-...teenage-love-do-not-enter-if-suicidal.460180/

im not trying to stop you from killing yourself again im headed down the same path. Trying to give you semblence of peace before you go. take my advice or dont, it doesnt bother me any.

 

[RegularManlet]

I was happy on the day when Le Blumpf won in 2016. All the crying and bitching from liberals everywhere was fucking hilarious to watch lmao. Even some of my uni professors were asshurt.

Lol same and I still remember the look on this high tier beckys face as she looked at me celebrating with my autistic friend lmao, i like people like trump elon tate just bcuz they make these faggots seethe

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

hey buddy. you're on an incel forum for people who have been rejected and dejected from everyone in their entire life. You're not alone in this. I was in an accident that left me paralyzed. I get how you feel, but not when you treat your fellow incels like shit. We should try to help each other where we can because no one else does. Until this incel-eat-incel attitude is squashed then we'll never advance beyond self loathing and never ascend. I know what my goals are in life and I strive to be better for it. I tried helping you the way I knew how, you spurned my advice

Nobody can change my fate, I was destined to take my own life at some point. Sorry but I can't change it. I don't deserve anything, not a woman, not even any mates. I hope eugenics become socially acceptable so nobody else has to suffer like I did.

 

[UglyBaldingManlet]

I was happy as a child playing with friends and riding bikes and such. Also, playing video games late at night with my childhood buddies during summer vacations.

My young adult life up to this date has been mostly shit though. The last 7 years in particular have been brutal, and I could honestly say I barely experience any sense of happiness and fulfilment. At best I have very brief periods of joy, but only for like an afternoon at best, then it quickly fades to feel empty inside.

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

im not trying to stop you from killing yourself again im headed down the same path. Trying to give you semblence of peace before you go. take my advice or dont, it doesnt bother me any.

Idk how I'd find peace. I mean blackpill at least made me come to terms with knowing its not my fault, its not any of our faults for the reason we are the way we are. One of the few things that still scares me is what if I'm wrong about the afterlife? The idea of the Abrahamic God actually being real scares me bc suicide is deemed hell-worthy. I'm already suffering on earth, and the concept of heaven and hell both terrify me. I tried to be a good person tho, I did everything they told me but I'm still the bad guy. I haven't and will not abandon my morals tho, even if it means nothing I refuse to give in. I have yet to conquer my instinctual fear of death, I need to learn how to let go

 

[Subhuman100]

Idk how I'd find peace. I mean blackpill at least made me come to terms with knowing its not my fault, its not any of our faults for the reason we are the way we are. One of the few things that still scares me is what if I'm wrong about the afterlife? The idea of the Abrahamic God actually being real scares me bc suicide is deemed hell-worthy. I'm already suffering on earth, and the concept of heaven and hell both terrify me. I tried to be a good person tho, I did everything they told me but I'm still the bad guy. I haven't and will not abandon my morals tho, even if it means nothing I refuse to give in. I have yet to conquer my instinctual fear of death, I need to learn how to let go

Don't do it you might end up in hell or be reincarcerated as a poor 5'3 curry in some slum

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

Don't do it you might end up in hell or be reincarcerated as a poor 5'3 curry in some slum

There's curry children getting more action than me rn in the sewers of Mumbai. My deformities and horrific muttceldom already make me basically curry-tier already. If there is a God, he's a cruel and apathetic God.

 

[Subhuman100]

There's curry children getting more action than me rn in the sewers of Mumbai. My deformities and horrific muttceldom already make me basically curry-tier already. If there is a God, he's a cruel and apathetic God.

brutal. what country are you in? and are you white?

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

brutal. what country are you in? and are you white?

America, no im not white, I said I'm a mutt. Half white half spic, all incel. Today I realized my true subhumanity, saw how others perceived me and realized I'm legit facially deformed. I have severe facial asymmetry, mainly jaw asymmetry, I mean its really fucking bad. Plus my spine just be malformed as well bc my neck is slanted to one side and even when standing perfectly still and straight it still looks crooked. Poorcel too so I don't have the money to surgerymax. I won't livestream my sui bc I don't want any family to see it. I'm thinking of doing it in a hotel room or maybe breaking into a morgue and shooting myself there.

 

[Ellsworth]

This was my favorite line in the Joker movie.

 

[Friezacel]

That last part is something ITfags won't acknowledge. If these were ancient prehistoric times I'd be killed as a baby for being the subhuman runt of the litter, little runtoid POS incapable of living a fulfilled life.

Absolutely agreed. There are still guys on this forum who think their moms love them. The only reason you haven't been abandoned or killed is because of certain ruled and laws and because of societal pressure

 

[Linesnap99]

brutal and sad af

 

[Linesnap99]

Absolutely agreed. There are still guys on this forum who think their moms love them. The only reason you haven't been abandoned or killed is because of certain ruled and laws and because of societal pressure

tbh

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

Absolutely agreed. There are still guys on this forum who think their moms love them. The only reason you haven't been abandoned or killed is because of certain ruled and laws and because of societal pressure

Yeah I realized AWALT, including your mom so I truly am all alone bc my father and step-father both suck and I've never had an even remotely ok relationship with either, add on to that having no friends and yeah, nobody will give a shit when I rope.

 

[IncelsNeverCry]

Same here these past few days I have been drinking and puking every night to a degree I couldn't do my postmaxxing, take out the trash or anything else, I just lost my job too so I want to go ER if only I had the money

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

Same here these past few days I have been drinking and puking every night to a degree I couldn't do my postmaxxing, take out the trash or anything else, I just lost my job too so I want to go ER if only I had the money

I don't even care about going ER or an inkwell rebellion anymore, I'm too ugly even for that. I mean straight up facially deformed, I wouldn't have a place in any society with patriarchy bc I'd always be the outcast over my looks.

 

[FuckNoNutNovember]

I have never been happy without weed, alcohol or prostitutes.

 

[NorwoodVictim]

I have never been happy without weed, alcohol or prostitutes.

Do you get happy when you cope with those?

 

[OG-dude98]

That's brutal. I can't remember the last time I genuinely felt happy either. I've been so hopeless for so long that I don't recognize myself anymore, it's like I'm numb.

 

[Namtriz912]

As long as you feel good and don't think about reality you're a happy person even if this happiness is temporary (few minutes every day at best).

 

[avoidthefoid]

same here. not even one happy day

 

[tom53h]

Come to think of it, I can't recall a single day in my entire pathetic excuse for a "life" where I've been happy. The last semblance of happiness was in 8th grade where I had several fake normie friends who ghosted me every chance they got and stopped talking to me altogether after a while. It hurts to remember how I was once a naive child with dreams of having a wife and 2 kids, I fell for the bullshit Hollywood lies they sold all of us as kids. The delusion that we'd ever have that....
It hurts knowing how much hope and optimism I had as a kid, before reality came crashing down and I was confronted with the horrifying coldness of my fate. There is nothing. There is literally nothing ahead, nothing lies ahead of me in my future other than a 9mm pointed at my skull. No afterlife, no loving God (if he's real he keeps me around for his sick entertainment), no friends, no true unconditional love from anyone. I don't think I wanna bother with copes, I'm not gonna handle another 5 years of this existence, let alone living as an elderly incel. Many animals in the wild never find a mate, why would it be any different in humans? That last part is something ITfags won't acknowledge. If these were ancient prehistoric times I'd be killed as a baby for being the subhuman runt of the litter, little runtoid POS incapable of living a fulfilled life.

there are really ways of fixing that social support network issues. don’t loose hope, you really just gotta try and socialise somehow. Idk go join a club or sum?

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

there are really ways of fixing that social support network issues. don’t loose hope, you really just gotta try and socialise somehow. Idk go join a club or sum?

Joined Today at 12:39 PM

 

[tom53h]

I'm gonna kill myself... nothing u or anyone else can do to help, the least u can do is just admit its bullshit and that life is hell and suffering for genetic trash like me. I've contemplated buddhistmonkmaxxing but this right here shattered any illusions of finding inner peace https://incels.is/threads/buddhist-...teenage-love-do-not-enter-if-suicidal.460180/

i hate this forum sm why is nobody encouraging u to seek professional help wtf? like even if your objectively vomit inducingly ugly u have a shot at being happy. you’re probably overstating the problem big time and went into a downwards spiral. that’s what’s mental illness does. society is horrible for treating some people the way you felt u were treated, but not everyone is like that. there’s still hope and i highly doubt you tried everything out. i rwally hope u go to therapy ngl. i was at a psych ward once bc of a failed attempt on my life and it was the best thing that ever happened to me. ur in crisis it can seriously get better no matter how hopeless it may seem. also depending on where u live therapy is free even. also if you wanna kys regardless you could go in debt to go to therapy idk. ik theres a slim chance you will give the slightest fuck but i really hope u can regenerate ur will to live slightly.

 

[i_want_emo_gf]

I used to be happy until the hopelessness set in

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

i hate this forum sm why is nobody encouraging u to seek professional help wtf? like even if your objectively vomit inducingly ugly u have a shot at being happy. you’re probably overstating the problem big time and went into a downwards spiral. that’s what’s mental illness does. society is horrible for treating some people the way you felt u were treated, but not everyone is like that. there’s still hope and i highly doubt you tried everything out. i rwally hope u go to therapy ngl. i was at a psych ward once bc of a failed attempt on my life and it was the best thing that ever happened to me. ur in crisis it can seriously get better no matter how hopeless it may seem. also depending on where u live therapy is free even. also if you wanna kys regardless you could go in debt to go to therapy idk. ik theres a slim chance you will give the slightest fuck but i really hope u can regenerate ur will to live slightly.

Shut the fuck up you absolute greynigger IT infiltrator redditard faggot, rope yourself ASAP

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

Shut the fuck up you absolute greynigger IT infiltrator redditard faggot, rope yourself ASAP

since I made this post I no longer wanna die, but I highly encourage YOU to exit-game yourself, fag

 

[slavicpsycho]

Definitely some genetic depression bro, thats not normal

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

Definitely some genetic depression bro, thats not normal

Fucking greyniggers raping this forum daily jfc

 

[tom53h]

Shut the fuck up you absolute greynigger IT infiltrator redditard faggot, rope yourself ASAP

ur mad for what?

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

ur mad for what?

Kys negro

 

[tom53h]

since I made this post I no longer wanna die, but I highly encourage YOU to exit-game yourself, fag

you’re way too emotional man

 

[tom53h]

Kys negro

u don’t have to be like that you’re so mentally I’ll it’s sad to whitens

 

[BELOW_Average_Joe]

u don’t have to be like that you’re so mentally I’ll it’s sad to whitens

Ban this nigger