Sorry if the story is a little hard to follow, but my sad and horny mental state isn't good at writing.
- February this year
- Despite being blackpilled, I still obsess over girls at my school
- I have a weakness for cute-looking girls, as I think of them as innocent (JFL)
- I have a crush on this one girl in my English class, whose nose is big (probably lowers her self-esteem) but has a cute face and slightly underdeveloped breasts
- [Fuck, I'm getting tachycardia just from thinking about her.]
- I'm drawn to her because her social media only has pictures of her with other girls, so I think I have a chance (JFL)
- There's a giga-Chad in my class (who once called me a "fucking loser" behind my back) who always hangs out with her group of female friends, so do the math.
- Monday morning in February
- Teacher asks people to go get laptops
- I volunteer because I'm a teacher's pet
- No one else wants to go with me
- Awkward silence
- Teacher forces crush and other girl to go help me
- Girls completely ignore me as we walk towards the library
- I go full beta cuck and hold the door open for them
- They both mutter "thank you" under their breaths
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- My only ever moment of interaction with her
- [Fast-forward to right now]
- I'm having thoughts about her
- Like I said earlier, she looks too cute and innocent to be a whore, but deep down I know she probably is
- I fantasize about being with her
- I take screenshots of her face, body, lips, and tongue from her social media
- I imagine kissing her lips and caressing her body
- And feeling her lips kiss my cheek, jaw, and neck
- And lying down in bed with her
- I realize that even if, by some miracle or divine intervention, she was my girlfriend…
- …she'd still probably cheat on me with that Chad.
- And that the Chad would fuck her for the lulz
- I start crying while masturbating
- And decide to vent on here
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