I looked at my Steam games and there are some games that I haven't touched since 2020 or 2021, but it feels like it was yesterday when I bought and played them. EUIV, for example, I haven't played since 2021 when I was 16 and yet I have so many memories of that game and have spent almost 600 hours on it. In all those years, literally nothing ever happened. Every day was the same with me either trudging through school or rotting in my room doing nothing but playing video games, browsing the internet and jerking off. I really can't think of anything interesting or exciting to get nostalgic about. It was just an endless cycle of the aforementioned activities. When I think of all the time I let pass as a teenager, it honestly makes me depressed. I wish I could remember doing fun things, but no, it was just the same old shit. Even though I'm 19, I feel like an old man when I see 15 or 16 year olds and envy them in a way. I hate that I have to come to terms with the fact that my teenage years were completely wasted and I have to enter adulthood without reaching any of the milestones I should have reached as a young teenager. Regret and disappointment is all I will ever feel when I look back on my teenage years.
