Blackpill My story. How I became a blackpilled incel

[Cutecel2001]

In 2019 I fell into a severe depression.

My parents decided to put me in a residence hall when I was going to start my first Computer Science course. I couldn't leave my room and I locked myself every time there was a knock on my door. After a week, I couldn't make friends and I always went to the dining room with two lorazepam pills in my body.

I couldn't take it anymore and decided not to go back to university. My parents had a hard time understanding it, but I finally stopped going (even though they had to pay for a month of residency).

After that, I returned to my home town. During that year, I was practically alone at home while my parents went to work. I wondered if my life failures and social anxiety were due to my lack of physical attractiveness.

Therefore, I made an account on Reddit and published my first post on r/truerateme. In a comment I saw that a user was talking about the looksmax.org forum and I decided to register.

As soon as I registered, I posted my first thread in the "rate me" subforum. They were all negative comments and I fell into a strong depression because of my physical appearance. Added to the loneliness I felt, music helped me cope with this state of mind. I took refuge in Nirvana, and Kurt Cobain was my idol (to this day). Thanks to him I "learned" to play the guitar. My first "song", when I had been "playing" for a week or two, was this (I could recover the audio of my laptop, this is from 2019):





I continued to improve and was able to do better things:




This hobby prevented me from hanging myself or cutting my wrists. That year I also started registering on dating apps without any success (like today), but thanks to this forum and the blackpill I decided to improve my physique and appearance.

I started lifting weights and improving my skin, so I took accutane and did a facial routine. However, to this day I am still khhv and I think this is a loop that I will never be able to get out of. For this reason I keep opening the same threads day after day. I'm a genetic trash, that's how I ended at incels.is


I don't know if this is a thread to ask for help or to vent, but here it goes.

 

[Namtriz912]

Sad to hear! You may be cute according to some prior to puberty but you'll become a man and seen as just another part of the crowd (not worth a 2nd look) but it is good you've not let the setbacks you've suffered cause you to quit you've pushed on and improved.

 

[Reize]

i listened through the whole things, i do music too, man i can feel the pain in those notes, somehow its still beautiful. This is a place to vent, yes, you'll find sincere companionship sometimes, it sucks to be stuck like this but hey, yes, music is very good cope

 

[suicidecase]

I wish I could be bothered learning guitar to that standard and I wish I had a functioning voice.

You seem normal and intelligent, I'd recommend getting away from this hellhole and pursuing normality. Looks matter but aren't everything, and you're likely average looking like most people.

Your song is good but a bit repetitive. I'd add a bridge, guitar solo, bassline or reprise the intro throughout the song or something.

 

[AshamedVirgin34]

At least you're putting an effort to be happy.

All those women who criticize us and say our sexlessness and undesirability are due to our personality should at least make a tinder account with a profile pic of a below average man, and they would see that no matter how good your personality is, you're not going to have any success on dating apps unless you're a chad or at least a chadlite. Reality blackpilled us.

 

[Logic55]

One day i will post my story of how I became an incel, it's a sad fucking story

 

[BornToLose]

In 2019 I fell into a severe depression.

Same! I was on Sanctioned Suicide till I found about this place from there JFL (when Master ran both sites).

I also play guitar/sing and love Nirvana. I guess I'm at a similar level on guitar, but you completely singmog me. Impressive.

 

[Cutecel2001]

I wish I could be bothered learning guitar to that standard and I wish I had a functioning voice.

You seem normal and intelligent, I'd recommend getting away from this hellhole and pursuing normality. Looks matter but aren't everything, and you're likely average looking like most people.

Your song is good but a bit repetitive. I'd add a bridge, guitar solo, bassline or reprise the intro throughout the song or something.

It was only a demo

 

[RollD20]

In this life there is only cope. Unless you are chad

 

[schmerlo]

In this life there is only cope. Unless you are chad

 

[RandomGuy]

be happy

Welcome nigga take it easy on urself

 

[RandomGuy]

It was only a demo

 

[Cutecel2001]

It was only a demo

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[ElTruecel]

Sad to hear! You may be cute according to some prior to puberty but you'll become a man and seen as just another part of the crowd (not worth a 2nd look) but it is good you've not let the setbacks you've suffered cause you to quit you've pushed on and improved.

I wish I could be bothered learning guitar to that standard and I wish I had a functioning voice.

You seem normal and intelligent, I'd recommend getting away from this hellhole and pursuing normality. Looks matter but aren't everything, and you're likely average looking like most people.

Your song is good but a bit repetitive. I'd add a bridge, guitar solo, bassline or reprise the intro throughout the song or something.

At least you're putting an effort to be happy.

All those women who criticize us and say our sexlessness and undesirability are due to our personality should at least make a tinder account with a profile pic of a below average man, and they would see that no matter how good your personality is, you're not going to have any success on dating apps unless you're a chad or at least a chadlite. Reality blackpilled us.

One day i will post my story of how I became an incel, it's a sad fucking story

Same! I was on Sanctioned Suicide till I found about this place from there JFL (when Master ran both sites).

I also play guitar/sing and love Nirvana. I guess I'm at a similar level on guitar, but you completely singmog me. Impressive.

In this life there is only cope. Unless you are chad

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lol op is probably the most attractive user on this site from all the faces I’ve seen. Biggest fucking fakecel of all time. KHHV with a face like this. This nigga is a high tier Normie he has 0 FACIAL FALIOS 0 NONE NAME ME FUCKING ONE. He’s literally attractive to where NT doesn’t fucking matter he is good looking

@cutecel2001 is attractive idk why he is so autistic

Made a tinder for him literally 2 minutes ago with some autistic pics he had in his thread And he already got a cute match

looksmax.org

This nigga just copes and says he’s ethnic + short so he can’t pull. JFL.


This is the biggest case of body dysphoria I’ve seen dude is actually a perfect example of genuine body dysphoria

 

[Namtriz912]

lol op is probably the most attractive user on this site from all the faces I’ve seen. Biggest fucking fakecel of all time. KHHV with a face like this. This nigga is a high tier Normie he has 0 FACIAL FALIOS 0 NONE NAME ME FUCKING ONE. He’s literally attractive to where NT doesn’t fucking matter he is good looking

@cutecel2001 is attractive idk why he is so autistic

Made a tinder for him literally 2 minutes ago with some autistic pics he had in his thread And he already got a cute match

looksmax.org

This nigga just copes and says he’s ethnic + short so he can’t pull. JFL.


This is the biggest case of body dysphoria I’ve seen dude is actually a perfect example of genuine body dysphoria

Thank you! I've sent cases of cutecels going the opposite way after puberty so I did show consideration where appropriate. But in hindsight made me look like a clown.