I never had genuine friends or people who showed me true affection without being abusive or bullying me. My daily experience for most of childhood consisted of being yelled at, name called, sworn at and humiliated for practically everything by my parents. For example sitting in front of the TV or playing video-games for too long, resulted in being called a lazy, worthless, stupid, good for nothing and being told to stop doing it. If I refused, I got hit. On top of this I got yelled at or slapped for the tiniest things, like being slapped for spilling orange juice while pouring it into a cup as a young kid. I was constantly told by them that I was a bad kid and unable to do anything right.
You might have assumed I had some kind of refuge from my rotten parents, but when I went tried to make friends in my old complex I was singled out for being poor at sports and socially weak. In my school I was ostracized for my odd autistic mannerisms, I never made a single friend on my own, outside of my parents play-dates, until the second grade. And they all eventually abandoned me.
So there I was being verbally, emotionally and physically abused by my parents who should have provided a loving and nurturing home, while at the same time being bullied and ostracized by my peers.
My whole life has been one horrible nightmare. I can't stand the fact others have had happy and wonderful childhoods and continue to have awesome adult experiences full of friendship, dating and sex, while I am unjustly denied everything positive. This world has given me shit all my life, and expects me to be a kind, loving, well-adjusted, contributor to society, fuck all you motherfuckers.
You might have assumed I had some kind of refuge from my rotten parents, but when I went tried to make friends in my old complex I was singled out for being poor at sports and socially weak. In my school I was ostracized for my odd autistic mannerisms, I never made a single friend on my own, outside of my parents play-dates, until the second grade. And they all eventually abandoned me.
So there I was being verbally, emotionally and physically abused by my parents who should have provided a loving and nurturing home, while at the same time being bullied and ostracized by my peers.
My whole life has been one horrible nightmare. I can't stand the fact others have had happy and wonderful childhoods and continue to have awesome adult experiences full of friendship, dating and sex, while I am unjustly denied everything positive. This world has given me shit all my life, and expects me to be a kind, loving, well-adjusted, contributor to society, fuck all you motherfuckers.
