My sexual fantasies are getting more violent lately...

[Permafrost]

My bitterness is eating itself into my daydreams. I am so used to avoiding foids because I expect disgust from them that I can't dream about them liking me. Imagining foids smiling at me for my inner eye feels like a humiliation. I have always had rape fantasies but they are getting more realistic. I used to imagine the subject of my fantasies being submissive to me, nowadays they are disgusted and angry in an I beat the fictional shit out of them while they scream. (Yeah, chicks who only exist inside of my head hate me, Its over.)

It has passed the point where I can get off on it. That type of hate does not mix with sex for me, (milder forms of hate do but not the type that makes you wanna bash someones face in). I want to reprogram myself. I want dreams that massage my ego. I want to dream about cute foids fawning for me. I want to dream of them begging me for dick.

Anyone with a similar problem? What did you do about it? Do you generally have control over your daydreams or does your subconcious self loath spill into them as well? What are the effects? Would love to hear your takes on this.

 

[Evil Genius]

I imagine myself having sex with every foid I see in public if I ever bother to leave my house.

It’s over for daydreamercels

 

[Mongolianwizard]

I have a guro collection I keep for when i'm in a really bad mood. What do you think of guro?

 

[Permafrost]

I have a guro collection I keep for when i'm in a really bad mood. What do you think of guro?

I like guro (if it is good) but guro usually has some sensuality to it. I am just turning into a full blown sadist and I don't wanna go there.

 

[deadman123]

I like guro (if it is good) but guro usually has some sensuality to it. I am just turning into a full blown sadist and I don't wanna go there.

Then don't do it it's that simple lol

 

[Mongolianwizard]

I like guro (if it is good) but guro usually has some sensuality to it. I am just turning into a full blown sadist and I don't wanna go there.

Fuck that, go there. Want my guro collection? I have it uploaded somewhere.

 

[Permafrost]

Fuck that, go there. Want my guro collection? I have it uploaded somewhere.

Are you a sadist?

 

[Mongolianwizard]

Are you a sadist?

I guess so, if we go by googles definition.

 

[Permafrost]

I guess so, if we go by googles definition.

What is the worst thing you have ver gotten off on? Wanna share?

 

[Mongolianwizard]

What is the worst thing you have ver gotten off on? Wanna share?

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/3ck33jy131g117h/AADLZYauWKdAnaxWdMOCDcY1a?dl=0
Everything in here.

 

[Permafrost]

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/3ck33jy131g117h/AADLZYauWKdAnaxWdMOCDcY1a?dl=0
Everything in here.

Lovely.

Have you seen the artwork with all the little mermaids?

 

[Mongolianwizard]

Have you seen the artwork with all the little mermaids?

I have not, link?

 

[microDongCityUSA]

satanic society makes sex to be a huge deal and couples need to have a healthy constant sex life or its not normal

i fap ya, i get horny but i wish i didn't, getting horny reminds me of anger or extreme hunger.....it overwhelms you and you don't feel in control and you regret (usually) the non decision making process afterwards

 

[Permafrost]

I have not, link?

Nooo, it was lost in cyberspace many years ago. But it was dear to me.

satanic society makes sex to be a huge deal and couples need to have a healthy constant sex life or its not normal

i fap ya, i get horny but i wish i didn't, getting horny reminds me of anger or extreme hunger.....it overwhelms you and you don't feel in control and you regret (usually) the non decision making process afterwards

Have you ever done anything you ever regret when in this state of mind?

 

[Deleted member 3291]

I try my best not to get into rape doujins but I’m slowly getting into it after reading a lot of ugly bastard/netorare

 

[ItalianLegionary]

Now this thread is some fucked up shit...

 

[Permafrost]

Now this thread is some fucked up shit...

We have to keep the FBI interested, don't you think? Cant have them lose interest in us.

 

[WarriorSkull]

The answer is to fully immerse yourself in the fantasy with no restrictions.You have to let go of the fear and shame you have attached to these thoughts, because those are what make them emotionally charged and very addictive. If you just let go and lose yourself into the urge like it is a wave of water crashing over your whole body, completely giving into it wihtout any resistance, you will be surprised by feeling it subside and go away on it's own after the peak.

 

[Permafrost]

The answer is to fully immerse yourself in the fantasy with no restrictions.You have to let go of the fear and shame you have attached to these thoughts, because those are what make them emotionally charged and very addictive. If you just let go and lose yourself into the urge like it is a wave of water crashing over your whole body, completely giving into it wihtout any resistance, you will be surprised by feeling it subside and go away on it's own after the peak.

High IQ post.

 

[microDongCityUSA]

Nooo, it was lost in cyberspace many years ago. But it was dear to me.


Have you ever done anything you ever regret when in this state of mind?

angry, horny and hungry? YA all the time - Junkfood, Fapping paying for credits to get a MFC cam model to do some degenerate maneuver for me, angry i threw a chair at a wall once because of a video game

 

[Deleted member 8353]

I don't really have sexual fantasies anymore, they only occur when I've been on nofap for too long and begin to obsess over it. When that happens I just fap so they go away, as at that point nofap becomes counterproductive for me. Yet I always regret it afterwards.

 

[Permafrost]

I don't really have sexual fantasies anymore, they only occur when I've been on nofap for too long and begin to obsess over it. When that happens I just fap so they go away, as at that point nofap becomes counterproductive for me. Yet I always regret it afterwards.

Do you miss it? Dreaming? I do not want to stop doing that.

 

[Deleted member 8353]

Do you miss it? Dreaming? I do not want to stop doing that.

No, I really wish I had no sex drive at all. I'd even consider taking SSRIs if I didn't loath the mind altering effects.

 

[Permafrost]

No, I really wish I had no sex drive at all. I'd even consider taking SSRIs if I didn't loath the mind altering effects.

Ever taken ssri:s before? What happens to the psyche?

 

[Deleted member 8353]

Ever taken ssri:s before? What happens to the psyche?

It's difficult to remember specifically, I stopped taking any meds when I was about 17. One thing I do recall is that they made creativity extremely difficult, and I'm not exactly certain of the reason. I couldn't mentally visualize things very well and I was basically was emotionless. Which is good and bad, but ultimately they made me suicidal because doing anything felt pointless. I think they fucked up my brain's reward system.

I also had other weird side effects like panic attacks only when I tried to fall asleep, tingling feeling in my feet that came and went. I'm essentially certain this was due to the meds, as I haven't had anything weird like that happen since I quit taking them.

Also this is just talking about my experience with SSRIs, I was also on an anti-psychotic before(risperdal), that was even worse.

 

[thespanishcel]

Who else can relate?

 

[Permafrost]

It's difficult to remember specifically, I stopped taking any meds when I was about 17. One thing I do recall is that they made creativity extremely difficult, and I'm not exactly certain of the reason. I couldn't mentally visualize things very well and I was basically was emotionless. Which is good and bad, but ultimately they made me suicidal because doing anything felt pointless. I think they fucked up my brain's reward system.

I also had other weird side effects like panic attacks only when I tried to fall asleep, tingling feeling in my feet that came and went. I'm essentially certain this was due to the meds, as I haven't had anything weird like that happen since I quit taking them.

Also this is just talking about my experience with SSRIs, I was also on an anti-psychotic before(risperdal), that was even worse.

That sounds highly unattractive.

Why do you want to quit having a sex drive? Does it bother you? I don't know if Ill ever have sex for free but I still get som banal pleasure from having the system working so to speak. Why do you want to get rid of it?

 

[Deleted member 8353]

Why do you want to quit having a sex drive? Does it bother you? I don't know if Ill ever have sex for free but I still get som banal pleasure from having the system working so to speak. Why do you want to get rid of it?

It's just distracting. I'd much rather not have the desire come up in the first place than have to satisfy it through fapping.

 

[BrendioEEE]

Hello cucktears.

 

[Deleted member 4159]

I imagine myself having sex with every foid I see in public if I ever bother to leave my house.

It’s over for daydreamercels

Hnnngghhhhhh @your avatar

 

[microDongCityUSA]

i'm using a firefox addon called blocksite so i don't visit degenerate sites like MFC or certain subreddits

its worked so far, have to retrain myself when i'm on the computer i'll habitually click on certain links and then it says blocked and i'll rethink about visiting

 

[Permafrost]

It's never bothered me. Why do you think its such a problem?

Too much of my life goes on inside of my head to let that spoil too. I want to have a happy place to hide from the world, not a realistic place.

 

[Permafrost]

It isn’t realistic. You should keep the mindset though. It will educate you

I want there to be some limit to how far I let myself drift into the darkness, to be honest. Education be damned.

 

[Sturmgeist]

With me, it depends on the girl. I could easily do it to a Stacy/normie girl that blathers her face in makeup, goes out drinking every night, uses up all of her parent's money and sleeps with a different guy every night. They deserve to be violated, mutilated, humiliated, etc.

 

[andinocel]

nowadays they are disgusted and angry in an I beat the fictional shit out of them while they scream. (Yeah, chicks who only exist inside of my head hate me, Its over.).

I've been having those type of fantasies for a few years. I felt guilt at first, but not anymore; foids are either disgusted by me, and those that are somewhat nice to me treat me as some harmless humanoid thing with no genitals.

 

[_wifebeater_]

I imagine myself having sex with every foid I see in public if I ever bother to leave my house.

It’s over for daydreamercels

 

[Permafrost]

I've been having those type of fantasies for a few years. I felt guilt at first, but not anymore; foids are either disgusted by me, and those that are somewhat nice to me treat me as some harmless humanoid thing with no genitals.

SInce I wrte this post I have managed to retrain myself to dream of women admiring me and fawning for me. It wasn't that hard after all.

In my head I am an Alpha+.