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There is the stereotype that incels/sexually unsuccessful men only focus on one woman, but this is simply untrue. As I was still approaching girls (in the early semesters of university/in my later school years) and got (needless to say) rejected it tasted bitter (like every rejection), but I never continued bothering to make something happen that doesn't happen on its own, after a "No!" or realising that a romantic/sexual relationship was unattainable I simply left.
It is a myth that people can change the minds of others, so it would only be a waste of temporal/emotional ressources of mine to continue to pursue someone who isn't interested.
Of course, I trashtalked about these women with male friends of mine or while being alone (which is completely normal as a cope), but I never had the "one" because soulmates are a desirable, but unrealistic concept of fiction - I just wanted a woman for a sexual/romantic relationship who fulfilled some necessary mental criteria (like same interests/tolerant of my interests). I tried it with two women on a serious basis: One chubby chick in high school (who liked the same books as me) and one autistic girl in university (who shared many of my interests and shared my diagnosis), other attempts failed at an even more basal level (because I made cringeworthy flirting attempts/etc., which where then aborted to protect my honour because I didn't want university to become the next high school or because I only got retarded one liners as a clear indication of disinterest).
I still remember how I lost weight and started to swim/gymmaxx to improve myself physically and how I thought that the next summer was the summer of my life - a summer that never came.
In my later semesters of university I said that I won't try to interact with female students anymore on anything but a professional basis because I didn't want to endanger my education - it's a good advice to never shit where you eat. This is also the time where my skepticism/disgust against females (of my age) in general grew, this was the time when I realized how much power they have: One wrong word and they can cost you your job/education and even if you don't get fired/thrown out it only takes one wrong approach to become the laughing stock of the nation. I didn't want to take the risk of getting into trouble and said I wanted to focus on getting a GF after my degrees, but now I honestly realise that this is almost impossible because each passing year the gap between me and others in terms of experiences/social skills/etc. grows - and I also overestimated my capability of resisting loneliness/sexlessness. Now it's too late anyways to meet new people there due to COVID anyways, I am nearly done with university (and I will probably not try to study further unless my parents force me). Afterwards I will have no social opportunities anymore.
I was never on any Dating Apps tbh, because it is redundant anyways (too much males, far too less females - and these are the worst kind of females anyways, which is quite an accomplishment). I was on two parties in my entire life and all were suicidefuel (one was prom at my school where my parents forced me to be and the other was a meetup in university for everyone). All I want to do is LDARing at this point.
It is a myth that people can change the minds of others, so it would only be a waste of temporal/emotional ressources of mine to continue to pursue someone who isn't interested.
Of course, I trashtalked about these women with male friends of mine or while being alone (which is completely normal as a cope), but I never had the "one" because soulmates are a desirable, but unrealistic concept of fiction - I just wanted a woman for a sexual/romantic relationship who fulfilled some necessary mental criteria (like same interests/tolerant of my interests). I tried it with two women on a serious basis: One chubby chick in high school (who liked the same books as me) and one autistic girl in university (who shared many of my interests and shared my diagnosis), other attempts failed at an even more basal level (because I made cringeworthy flirting attempts/etc., which where then aborted to protect my honour because I didn't want university to become the next high school or because I only got retarded one liners as a clear indication of disinterest).
I still remember how I lost weight and started to swim/gymmaxx to improve myself physically and how I thought that the next summer was the summer of my life - a summer that never came.
In my later semesters of university I said that I won't try to interact with female students anymore on anything but a professional basis because I didn't want to endanger my education - it's a good advice to never shit where you eat. This is also the time where my skepticism/disgust against females (of my age) in general grew, this was the time when I realized how much power they have: One wrong word and they can cost you your job/education and even if you don't get fired/thrown out it only takes one wrong approach to become the laughing stock of the nation. I didn't want to take the risk of getting into trouble and said I wanted to focus on getting a GF after my degrees, but now I honestly realise that this is almost impossible because each passing year the gap between me and others in terms of experiences/social skills/etc. grows - and I also overestimated my capability of resisting loneliness/sexlessness. Now it's too late anyways to meet new people there due to COVID anyways, I am nearly done with university (and I will probably not try to study further unless my parents force me). Afterwards I will have no social opportunities anymore.
I was never on any Dating Apps tbh, because it is redundant anyways (too much males, far too less females - and these are the worst kind of females anyways, which is quite an accomplishment). I was on two parties in my entire life and all were suicidefuel (one was prom at my school where my parents forced me to be and the other was a meetup in university for everyone). All I want to do is LDARing at this point.
