When I was but 2 years old my father came up with an ingenious (not) idea: giving me an Instrument that I will play for the next 16 years of my life in hopes of me becoming a "Famous Musician".
It was a childrens guitar for 50€ - that I still have btw its somewhere rotting in my bunker.
From the moment I was just 2 yo I started playing that Instrument that I had little attachement or understanding for at that age. From the moment my father decided I needed to "express my extreme creativity" he thought I will once be able to not only make money of it but become a famous guitarist.
Essentially they belived i will be pretty boy Marcin the Guitar God
2 to 4 times every week for years and years to come I WASTED 15 to 60 minutes every day playing the Instrument that I never liked and never understood WHY exactly I need to play this.
At age 14 I was actually getting fed up with it, because after 12 years of playing I was still basically on beginners level, little higher then an amateur but not by much.
From that age on everyone at my music school got better and better and better - except me. My ADHD essentially blocked my understanding of the notes of more advanced Songs.
I never got the melody behind the whole Song before my teacher played the Song MULTIPLE times in front of me until I finally could catch on.
Furthermore due to my dialect (and at the time bad english) I could not sing whatsoever.
I have a very deep argubly manly voice, but its not a voice to sing especially nothing in english as I am German. So at most I could sing to old folklore or schlager. Lol
From 14 to 18 I continued this and went to the orchester for teenagers.
At that point even the younger 12 yo kids had surpassed me in the Orchester.
Meanwhile my father thought at that age I would be able to play like this:
View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=WcRbJhqpJGQ&pp=ygUNUm9kZ2VyIGd1aXRhcg%3D%3D
Like Rodger...but I was more like the first guy with his shallow Riffs lmao.
At 19 was the last time I played in the Orchester as I had become to old for it now, next thing I could do is join the adult orchester but matter of the fact is: I never enjoyed it to begin with and only did it for my parents and grandparents (sometimes)
Grandparents which I hate btw.
Over the course of these almost 17 years my father paid close to 20.000€ everything included for my Training hours, driving to concerts and extra stuff I needed.
At 20 I finally decided to give up playing the guitar completely.
My father wished for me to continue.
He also knows due to Tiktok and Social Media and my inability to establish a followership, the whole Musician Pro fantasy is over, just as much as the fact that I wont make money with this (which was the main point of me getting the Instrument and NOT me being more Musical creative).
Despite that I was in an Orchester for many years - I had never made any single friend there. In fact barely anyone really wanted to talk to me to begin with.
But you know what? Playing the guitar essentially made me an Incel.
It blockated a lot of options I could have had and defined my life in such a way that I was FORCED by my parents to go to a school of "Musicians" which opened up some of the worst experiences I could have ever had through my life thst follow me until this day.
I not only met my Oneitis that cucked me 5 times and some friends that all betrayed me. It also led to me CHANGING SCHOOL 4 TIMES! Which is annatural.
But giving me tjst instrument defined me that much.
In fact giving me a guitar at 2 yo actually ended up killing the father of one of my classmates!
Crazy Story but the guy was supposed to pick up his son from school first and then come to me to pick me up from music school.
But after he picken up his son he crashed and died in a hospital later - I never liked thst father of that kid anyway, he was constantly an asshole to me but still lol if you think about it he would have never died if Id didnt play guitar, becausehe wouldnt happen to be at that place at that time when he crashed.
It was a childrens guitar for 50€ - that I still have btw its somewhere rotting in my bunker.
From the moment I was just 2 yo I started playing that Instrument that I had little attachement or understanding for at that age. From the moment my father decided I needed to "express my extreme creativity" he thought I will once be able to not only make money of it but become a famous guitarist.
Essentially they belived i will be pretty boy Marcin the Guitar God
2 to 4 times every week for years and years to come I WASTED 15 to 60 minutes every day playing the Instrument that I never liked and never understood WHY exactly I need to play this.
At age 14 I was actually getting fed up with it, because after 12 years of playing I was still basically on beginners level, little higher then an amateur but not by much.
From that age on everyone at my music school got better and better and better - except me. My ADHD essentially blocked my understanding of the notes of more advanced Songs.
I never got the melody behind the whole Song before my teacher played the Song MULTIPLE times in front of me until I finally could catch on.
Furthermore due to my dialect (and at the time bad english) I could not sing whatsoever.
I have a very deep argubly manly voice, but its not a voice to sing especially nothing in english as I am German. So at most I could sing to old folklore or schlager. Lol
From 14 to 18 I continued this and went to the orchester for teenagers.
At that point even the younger 12 yo kids had surpassed me in the Orchester.
Meanwhile my father thought at that age I would be able to play like this:
View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=WcRbJhqpJGQ&pp=ygUNUm9kZ2VyIGd1aXRhcg%3D%3D
Like Rodger...but I was more like the first guy with his shallow Riffs lmao.
At 19 was the last time I played in the Orchester as I had become to old for it now, next thing I could do is join the adult orchester but matter of the fact is: I never enjoyed it to begin with and only did it for my parents and grandparents (sometimes)
Grandparents which I hate btw.
Over the course of these almost 17 years my father paid close to 20.000€ everything included for my Training hours, driving to concerts and extra stuff I needed.
At 20 I finally decided to give up playing the guitar completely.
My father wished for me to continue.
He also knows due to Tiktok and Social Media and my inability to establish a followership, the whole Musician Pro fantasy is over, just as much as the fact that I wont make money with this (which was the main point of me getting the Instrument and NOT me being more Musical creative).
Despite that I was in an Orchester for many years - I had never made any single friend there. In fact barely anyone really wanted to talk to me to begin with.
But you know what? Playing the guitar essentially made me an Incel.
It blockated a lot of options I could have had and defined my life in such a way that I was FORCED by my parents to go to a school of "Musicians" which opened up some of the worst experiences I could have ever had through my life thst follow me until this day.
I not only met my Oneitis that cucked me 5 times and some friends that all betrayed me. It also led to me CHANGING SCHOOL 4 TIMES! Which is annatural.
But giving me tjst instrument defined me that much.
In fact giving me a guitar at 2 yo actually ended up killing the father of one of my classmates!
Crazy Story but the guy was supposed to pick up his son from school first and then come to me to pick me up from music school.
But after he picken up his son he crashed and died in a hospital later - I never liked thst father of that kid anyway, he was constantly an asshole to me but still lol if you think about it he would have never died if Id didnt play guitar, becausehe wouldnt happen to be at that place at that time when he crashed.
