Alright, since I've been a member here for quite a while now I've decided it's time to share my origin story formally in it's own thread. Some of you may know it already from my comments, but I've never laid it out in full, and I really don't post that much. Based on the reactions I have received, it seems my predicament is rather unique and undeniably truecel. All the way back when AM happened, I even shared my story with a normie boomer podcast, and it shocked them so much that it actually changed their minds about incels to some extent (27:30, 31:30, 37:15 my desc. of blackpill, 1:03:20), especially considering it was after one of the most inflammatory incidents this community has ever been the center of. Also, I'm planning to use this as a reference in the future to spare others the gory details. Ngl there are going to be some gross medical details here that will likely make you cringe.
Birth - age 14 (TLDR, just skip this section, next one is important)
So some quick background first. I was born an only child to parents in their late 20s. Because of my father's job in the military, my family constantly moved around the U.S. every 2-3 years as my father was re-stationed. Because of this, I never really had a stable social group or friendship base throughout my elementary school years. As soon as I started to get to know people enough to have a chance at making legit "friends," it would be time to leave them all behind for a completely new state and be the new kid without any friends again. Especially not having any siblings, all I could really do was play Pokemon Ruby on my Gameboy and watch incel-tier cartoons like Ed, Edd, and Eddy and Courage the Cowardly Dog. I don't remember really thinking about this at the time, but looking back I do wonder how much this fucked me up for years to come. Though I do suppose there are chads who've moved around a lot and been more than fine
Not much memorable happened during middle school. I started hearing about kids sexting over Facetime and shit, but I always thought that was rumor, until my future football-player classmates straight up showed me a titty show of one of my classmates. Needless to say, such was unfathomable to me. I did manage to lose my handholding card after relentlessly simping and orbiting one girl, only for her friend to presumably slander me for my looks and basically made her ashamed to associate with me. This basically threw me into my first depressive episode. I still had hope, though, so I asked out this one looksmatched girl in my class only to be brutally rejected during recess because she was taller than me (especially brutal because girls enter puberty like a year before boys). Since then, I've never really had a reasonable opportunity to "ask a girl out" without straight up cold-approaching or coming off as a creep or whatever.
Age 14: Where it Truly Becomes OVER
Up to this point, I might have been able to ascend via looksmaxxing or PUA and be a failed normie or something, but after the medical issues I suffered at the beginning of high school, it truly become over.
During the winter of my freshman year, I straight up began to shit blood out of nowhere. At first there wasn't much, but over the course of a week I went from being normal to shitting blood 20+ times a day with horrible, constant abdominal pain. My parents took me to the ER [teehee] (only after a foid doctor misdiagnosed me with constipation JFL) and I was eventually diagnosed with Crohn's disease. Basically my colon/large intestine was inflamed. My own body is so worthless that my immune system was dysfunctioned and attacking my own guts.
In order to treat this, the doctors tried various immunosuppressants, 4 in total. Because each of these take 2-3 weeks to work, I was forced to endure months of shitting blood and constant pain until they eventually gave up and decided I need surgery to straight up remove my large intestine. I had 24 blood transfusions during this time because that's how much fucking blood I lost.
The surgery is called a total colectomy. Basically they removed my entire large intestine and created an ileostomy pouch. Instead of shitting like a normal human, the end of my small intestine just pokes out of my belly into a bag where the shit goes, and I empty the bag when it fills up (see pic below, not mine). I don't my use my asshole. Since then I have basically given up and accepted that it is over. Most people who have this eventually get it reversed, but mine is permanent for life because my entire large intestine had to be removed. My case was worse than literal colon cancer patients.
14 - Present
Somehow I maintained motivation to finish near the top of my class in hs and graduate as salutatorian. Partly this is due to my NPC smoothbrain parents constantly drilling "muh education, muh education!" into my brain, partly because studymaxxing is the one thing I was good at and felt I had "control" over, considering I can't even control my own defecation. This got me into a top-tier elite uni, but i simply did not have any more motivation after witnessing all the gigachads and social justice cuckery that is ubiquitous on such campuses. I couldn't make any friends because they were literally all SJWs, and they all mog me to oblivion.
Eventually, after discussing with my parents, I decided withdraw and return home. I simply wanted to straight up leave immediately, but my parents insisted I meet with a counselor to get a medical withdrawal for depression so my tuition would be forgived. I revealed too much of my power level, and the counselor had security "escort" me to a psych ward. I technically consented, but only because I knew at that moment I didn't really have a choice and it would be more difficult to get out if it was involuntary. I spent a week in there and returned home.
My parents still forced me to go to uni because my dad is a fucking retard, but now I can at least commute so I don't have to live with normies that mog me constantly. I have a year left. Once I finish I intend to tell my parents to fuck off because I have done everything they told me to, I have spent my life studymaxxing hard only to be mogged by richboi Chads whose parents have the connections to get them into elite unis and high-paying jobs effortlessly and the genetics to get laid without trying even though they are braindead egotistical assholes. I'm fucking done, ldar and neetlife for me. They forced their worthless genes and this terrible life upon me, they can pay for the rest of it.
Conclusion
Basically I think it's over, but I also wanted to get some outside perspective from you guys. Do you agree, or is there any amount of looksmaxxing, NTmaxxing, and betabuxxing that could possibly make up for this? Based on my browsing of ostomy forums, there really isn't much hope. Most people who have these are middle-age or older, and apparently even foids get rejected over this.
One interesting consideration is this story of a male model that ended up with a ostomy. Do you think this guy could get laid or is it over for him as well
If you've made it this far, thank you for hearing out my story. Ngl this helped a lot to vent and actually put this all out in writing for once.
@OverBeforeItBegan sorry for being late on this
Birth - age 14 (TLDR, just skip this section, next one is important)
So some quick background first. I was born an only child to parents in their late 20s. Because of my father's job in the military, my family constantly moved around the U.S. every 2-3 years as my father was re-stationed. Because of this, I never really had a stable social group or friendship base throughout my elementary school years. As soon as I started to get to know people enough to have a chance at making legit "friends," it would be time to leave them all behind for a completely new state and be the new kid without any friends again. Especially not having any siblings, all I could really do was play Pokemon Ruby on my Gameboy and watch incel-tier cartoons like Ed, Edd, and Eddy and Courage the Cowardly Dog. I don't remember really thinking about this at the time, but looking back I do wonder how much this fucked me up for years to come. Though I do suppose there are chads who've moved around a lot and been more than fine
Not much memorable happened during middle school. I started hearing about kids sexting over Facetime and shit, but I always thought that was rumor, until my future football-player classmates straight up showed me a titty show of one of my classmates. Needless to say, such was unfathomable to me. I did manage to lose my handholding card after relentlessly simping and orbiting one girl, only for her friend to presumably slander me for my looks and basically made her ashamed to associate with me. This basically threw me into my first depressive episode. I still had hope, though, so I asked out this one looksmatched girl in my class only to be brutally rejected during recess because she was taller than me (especially brutal because girls enter puberty like a year before boys). Since then, I've never really had a reasonable opportunity to "ask a girl out" without straight up cold-approaching or coming off as a creep or whatever.
Age 14: Where it Truly Becomes OVER
Up to this point, I might have been able to ascend via looksmaxxing or PUA and be a failed normie or something, but after the medical issues I suffered at the beginning of high school, it truly become over.
During the winter of my freshman year, I straight up began to shit blood out of nowhere. At first there wasn't much, but over the course of a week I went from being normal to shitting blood 20+ times a day with horrible, constant abdominal pain. My parents took me to the ER [teehee] (only after a foid doctor misdiagnosed me with constipation JFL) and I was eventually diagnosed with Crohn's disease. Basically my colon/large intestine was inflamed. My own body is so worthless that my immune system was dysfunctioned and attacking my own guts.
In order to treat this, the doctors tried various immunosuppressants, 4 in total. Because each of these take 2-3 weeks to work, I was forced to endure months of shitting blood and constant pain until they eventually gave up and decided I need surgery to straight up remove my large intestine. I had 24 blood transfusions during this time because that's how much fucking blood I lost.
The surgery is called a total colectomy. Basically they removed my entire large intestine and created an ileostomy pouch. Instead of shitting like a normal human, the end of my small intestine just pokes out of my belly into a bag where the shit goes, and I empty the bag when it fills up (see pic below, not mine). I don't my use my asshole. Since then I have basically given up and accepted that it is over. Most people who have this eventually get it reversed, but mine is permanent for life because my entire large intestine had to be removed. My case was worse than literal colon cancer patients.
14 - Present
Somehow I maintained motivation to finish near the top of my class in hs and graduate as salutatorian. Partly this is due to my NPC smoothbrain parents constantly drilling "muh education, muh education!" into my brain, partly because studymaxxing is the one thing I was good at and felt I had "control" over, considering I can't even control my own defecation. This got me into a top-tier elite uni, but i simply did not have any more motivation after witnessing all the gigachads and social justice cuckery that is ubiquitous on such campuses. I couldn't make any friends because they were literally all SJWs, and they all mog me to oblivion.
Eventually, after discussing with my parents, I decided withdraw and return home. I simply wanted to straight up leave immediately, but my parents insisted I meet with a counselor to get a medical withdrawal for depression so my tuition would be forgived. I revealed too much of my power level, and the counselor had security "escort" me to a psych ward. I technically consented, but only because I knew at that moment I didn't really have a choice and it would be more difficult to get out if it was involuntary. I spent a week in there and returned home.
My parents still forced me to go to uni because my dad is a fucking retard, but now I can at least commute so I don't have to live with normies that mog me constantly. I have a year left. Once I finish I intend to tell my parents to fuck off because I have done everything they told me to, I have spent my life studymaxxing hard only to be mogged by richboi Chads whose parents have the connections to get them into elite unis and high-paying jobs effortlessly and the genetics to get laid without trying even though they are braindead egotistical assholes. I'm fucking done, ldar and neetlife for me. They forced their worthless genes and this terrible life upon me, they can pay for the rest of it.
Conclusion
Basically I think it's over, but I also wanted to get some outside perspective from you guys. Do you agree, or is there any amount of looksmaxxing, NTmaxxing, and betabuxxing that could possibly make up for this? Based on my browsing of ostomy forums, there really isn't much hope. Most people who have these are middle-age or older, and apparently even foids get rejected over this.
One interesting consideration is this story of a male model that ended up with a ostomy. Do you think this guy could get laid or is it over for him as well
If you've made it this far, thank you for hearing out my story. Ngl this helped a lot to vent and actually put this all out in writing for once.
@OverBeforeItBegan sorry for being late on this
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