On 2022 while i was DEEP into my self improvement grind a big part of it was pushing myself to socialize, this would result in one of the most brutal things i've ever lived.
I started socializing with only 2 dudes on my class that tolerated me, the talks were decent, we even played some cards and went to various restaurants to eat, on all my life they're prolly the only two normal dudes that actually treated me like a human and i will always respect em for that despite not being like me.
One of these dudes was a lot closer to me and he tried to give me a boost on my self improv, but everytime i went to restaurants both him and me noticed how all the women from class that went in other vehicles always ignored me like i was a ghost, no talk at all, weird stares, he even told me once that they asked him why i was going alongside him, that i was a weirdo and a creep.
I still tried my best to keep socializing and even entering uni activities they did at the campus, all of this would result on MULTIPLE classrooms of other faculties alongside my own calling me a future uni shooter, i wanna add i never acted violent at campus, neither i was dressing black or edgy, it came out of nowhere and the nigga that told me they were mocking me by the dozens was the nigga i was hanging out with the most, he simply told me to ignore it cause i was a cool dude, but it stung a lot, getting called that in such a small shithole country where a shooting HAS NEVER HAPPENED, really? After this i would notice entire classrooms were mocking me on tiktok videos for weeks and nobody did anything to try to cheer me up.
That shit traumatized me, easily one of the worst bullying experiences i've had, it was 10x as brutal cause the reality is that im a soft and emotional nigga despite my looks, prolly caused by my mental conditions, so i took it hard, i never showed emotions at college cause i knew better to breakdown there, but it was a really tough year.
I started socializing with only 2 dudes on my class that tolerated me, the talks were decent, we even played some cards and went to various restaurants to eat, on all my life they're prolly the only two normal dudes that actually treated me like a human and i will always respect em for that despite not being like me.
One of these dudes was a lot closer to me and he tried to give me a boost on my self improv, but everytime i went to restaurants both him and me noticed how all the women from class that went in other vehicles always ignored me like i was a ghost, no talk at all, weird stares, he even told me once that they asked him why i was going alongside him, that i was a weirdo and a creep.
I still tried my best to keep socializing and even entering uni activities they did at the campus, all of this would result on MULTIPLE classrooms of other faculties alongside my own calling me a future uni shooter, i wanna add i never acted violent at campus, neither i was dressing black or edgy, it came out of nowhere and the nigga that told me they were mocking me by the dozens was the nigga i was hanging out with the most, he simply told me to ignore it cause i was a cool dude, but it stung a lot, getting called that in such a small shithole country where a shooting HAS NEVER HAPPENED, really? After this i would notice entire classrooms were mocking me on tiktok videos for weeks and nobody did anything to try to cheer me up.
That shit traumatized me, easily one of the worst bullying experiences i've had, it was 10x as brutal cause the reality is that im a soft and emotional nigga despite my looks, prolly caused by my mental conditions, so i took it hard, i never showed emotions at college cause i knew better to breakdown there, but it was a really tough year.
