It's Over My mind is destroyed from inceldom

[cripplecel]

I have been rotting for atleast 5 years. But nearly 3 years using this forum.

In this time my mind has completely been destroyed. 3 years ago I had energy to do things and could focus, I was working out every week and doing other shit.

Now I have NO energy for anything. I must force myself through the workouts. If I want to do anything productive my mind goes against me. It is a real struggle to be productive in any way. I just want to ROT and DIE.

My desire to fix my loneliness is increasing which is BAD because I fucking can’t fix it.

I am worried to see what my mental state will be in 2, 3, 5 or more years. The loneliness will keep getting worse and from rotting my mind will continue to get DESTROYED.

 

[udeactive]

better than believing in redill or bluepill and coping thou

 

[AnApparentMyth]

This is like me, man. I hate working out and I hate the fact that my body isn't even good after 5 months of doing it. The only way I have tried to fix this is nature, or just going out on my own. What else have you done, man?

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

The longer you go without intimacy, without love, without companionship—the more you will start to degenerate into an empty, emotionless being.

 

[Hoppipolla]

I think if you find success in other ways then that tends to attract women.

 

[cripplecel]

I think if you find success in other ways then that tends to attract women.

What ways?

 

[cripplecel]

This is like me, man. I hate working out and I hate the fact that my body isn't even good after 5 months of doing it. The only way I have tried to fix this is nature, or just going out on my own. What else have you done, man?

I tried many different workout program like 3 day, 4 day. I tried sleeping earlier and changing the time I do the workout.

But i still got no energy. The only way to do it is force myself.

I was the complete opposite 2-3 years ago.

 

[Hoppipolla]

What ways?

Women like successful guys.

I don't think it's because they're shallow as such or materialistic but more because they want to be provided for and cared for.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

I tried many different workout program like 3 day, 4 day. I tried sleeping earlier and changing the time I do the workout.

But i still got no energy. The only way to do it is force myself.

I was the complete opposite 2-3 years ago.

Yeah, same. I just do fullbody at home. Do you workout at home, or the gym? I haven't had a single ounce of energy for this shit for a long time. It's sad, but you come to just take it in.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

Women like successful guys.

I don't think it's because they're shallow as such or materialistic but more because they want to be provided for and cared for.

What do you mean?

 

[cripplecel]

Women like successful guys.

I don't think it's because they're shallow as such or materialistic but more because they want to be provided for and cared for.

I am trying to be successful and get money

But I’ll only be a betabuxx attracting women that way. And they are super materialistic. Basically every foid is a massive consoooomer.

 

[cripplecel]

Yeah, same. I just do fullbody at home. Do you workout at home, or the gym? I haven't had a single ounce of energy for this shit for a long time. It's sad, but you come to just take it in.

I have a home gym.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

I have a home gym.

What is the equipment?

 

[cripplecel]

What is the equipment?

I got dumbbells, bench, pull-down & row machine, belt squat and leg extension / curl machine.

I can’t use barbell squat because of my truecel hips

 

[Sex-Starved Beast]

I am like that too, I still don't understand if I simply have low drive and no energy by default or if it's because deep down I know that nothing I try will be useful even in the long run. I spent a few years working hard and self-improving, and where did that lead me to? I don't want to do anything anymore.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

I got dumbbells, bench, pull-down & row machine, belt squat and leg extension / curl machine.

I can’t use barbell squat because of my truecel hips

I always wanted a leg extension machine. But how long have you been workin out and how far have you come?

 

[The Enforcer]

Life and inceldom typically do weigh one down like that. It's an abnormal torturous circumstance that wreaks havoc on ones mental wellbeing unfortunately. It is brutal, but it's better understanding why we're in this situation as opposed to being bluepilled. The bluepill leads to catastrophic suicidality and self-hatred through confusion eventually.

 

[Misogynist Vegeta]

I experience the same lack of energy sometimes, It's my belief that this forced isolation is doing damage to our brains. In decade or so scientists will recoil in horror at the damage that our society has let be done to men like you and me.

 

[cripplecel]

I always wanted a leg extension machine. But how long have you been workin out and how far have you come?

Since like 2021. But I had taken a break in 2023. Overall the improvements are good, and I am decently strong.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

Since like 2021. But I had taken a break in 2023. Overall the improvements are good, and I am decently strong.

Good stuff. What else do you do in your day to day life? I find that focusing super hard on something causes me to lose my mind a bit

 

[Hoppipolla]

I am trying to be successful and get money

But I’ll only be a betabuxx attracting women that way. And they are super materialistic. Basically every foid is a massive consoooomer.

Maybe the idea that all women see provider men as betabuxx is just flawed.

I think some see them as Daddy. XD

Like... surviving off of the charity of someone else doesn't exactly put you in the dominant position.

 

[cripplecel]

Life and inceldom typically do weigh one down like that. It's an abnormal torturous circumstance that wreaks havoc on ones mental wellbeing unfortunately. It is brutal, but it's better understanding why we're in this situation as opposed to being bluepilled. The bluepill leads to catastrophic suicidality and self-hatred through confusion eventually.

Yeah, when I was blue pilled all the normies I knew were getting into relationships meanwhile I was completely isolated and I didn’t know why.

Atleast now I can have the peace of knowing why I am in this situation.

 

[cripplecel]

I experience the same lack of energy sometimes, It's my belief that this forced isolation is doing damage to our brains. In decade or so scientists will recoil in horror at the damage that our society has let be done to men like you and me.

I believe this as well. Nothing about how we are living is normal, this is doing severe damage to us.

I can feel it more and more as time goes on.

 

[cripplecel]

Good stuff. What else do you do in your day to day life? I find that focusing super hard on something causes me to lose my mind a bit

I am learning a bunch of programming stuff. I try to spend like 2-4 hours each day but my energy comes and goes. Last week I was grinding but this week I am rotting.

What do you do bro?

 

[ItsovERfucks]

The longer you go without intimacy, without love, without companionship—the more you will start to degenerate into an empty, emotionless being.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

I am learning a bunch of programming stuff. I try to spend like 2-4 hours each day but my energy comes and goes. Last week I was grinding but this week I am rotting.

What do you do bro?

I'm probably in a worse position then you m8, lol. I am a genuine Neet and hardly leave my house. I like to go on walks to nature but for education I am failing hard. Programming is something that could be a good thing for you to do. I often find myself hyped up for something, then the next day, wanting to quit and rot.

 

[The Enforcer]

Yeah, when I was blue pilled all the normies I knew were getting into relationships meanwhile I was completely isolated and I didn’t know why.

Atleast now I can have the peace of knowing why I am in this situation.

The bluepill is a form of psychological abuse as far as im concerned

 

[cripplecel]

I'm probably in a worse position then you m8, lol. I am a genuine Neet and hardly leave my house. I like to go on walks to nature but for education I am failing hard. Programming is something that could be a good thing for you to do. I often find myself hyped up for something, then the next day, wanting to quit and rot.

The only way for us incels is to just force ourselves. Eventually we will burn out but we can take some small breaks.

I believe only normies will get motivation and shit. Since they have so many positive experiences when they are young.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

The only way for us incels is to just force ourselves. Eventually we will burn out but we can take some small breaks.

I believe only normies will get motivation and shit. Since they have so many positive experiences when they are young.

Exactly. This is what a lot of them don't understand. Quick Question though, do you have any mental illnesses? I know that stuff like ADHD can debilitate dopamine and depression. I probably do, if I'm being honest.

 

[cripplecel]

Exactly. This is what a lot of them don't understand. Quick Question though, do you have any mental illnesses? I know that stuff like ADHD can debilitate dopamine and depression. I probably do, if I'm being honest.

I got Autism.

If I was NT my life will be 100x better. Even if I was still incel I won’t be suffering from extremely loneliness and rotting.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

I got Autism.

If I was NT my life will be 100x better. Even if I was still incel I won’t be suffering from extremely loneliness and rotting.

I get you. The loneliness gets to me a lot of the time. I haven't spoken to anyone outside my house in 3 years. At least you try to work out. What type of job do you pursue? Programming, I am assuming?

 

[packardD]

I have been rotting for atleast 5 years. But nearly 3 years using this forum.

In this time my mind has completely been destroyed. 3 years ago I had energy to do things and could focus, I was working out every week and doing other shit.

Now I have NO energy for anything. I must force myself through the workouts. If I want to do anything productive my mind goes against me. It is a real struggle to be productive in any way. I just want to ROT and DIE.

My desire to fix my loneliness is increasing which is BAD because I fucking can’t fix it.

I am worried to see what my mental state will be in 2, 3, 5 or more years. The loneliness will keep getting worse and from rotting my mind will continue to get DESTROYED.

I am completely cooked and it seems like there is no turning back

 

[Mihailo Toloto]

Where are you from? Have incel friends and hang out with them or play with them, it's a good way to deal with loneliness

 

[Nullified]

The NTpill is heavily underestimated and is the most brutal. Imagine being inherently unable to connect to 97% of people around you. Fucking torture. I know how it is.

 

[cripplecel]

I get you. The loneliness gets to me a lot of the time. I haven't spoken to anyone outside my house in 3 years. At least you try to work out. What type of job do you pursue? Programming, I am assuming?

Yeah I am trying to be a software engineer. Probably only job I can do without wanting to die.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

Yeah I am trying to be a software engineer. Probably only job I can do without wanting to die.

That can be done at home, right? If I recall.

 

[cripplecel]

That can be done at home, right? If I recall.

Sometimes it can. Ideally I will do work from home so I have more time.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

Sometimes it can. Ideally I will do work from home so I have more time.

Sounds good. How often do you leave the house?

 

[cripplecel]

Where are you from? Have incel friends and hang out with them or play with them, it's a good way to deal with loneliness
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Chadstralia.

I can only find normies

 

[cripplecel]

Sounds good. How often do you leave the house?

basically never. I leave to eat food maybe 2x a month.

If I need to go to uni then I leave for that. Otherwise I ldar.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

basically never. I leave to eat food maybe 2x a month.

If I need to go to uni then I leave for that. Otherwise I ldar.

Sounds about the same. How was your high school years? Assuming you went to school, unlike me.

 

[cripplecel]

Sounds about the same. How was your high school years? Assuming you went to school, unlike me.

Rotted for most of it

Only middle school was good.

Why didn’t you go to school?

 

[AnApparentMyth]

Rotted for most of it

Only middle school was good.

Why didn’t you go to school?

My parents were a real nutsacket of crocked shit. It was constant arguments and alcoholism, which severely scarred my relationship with my Mother and Father. I was forcefully pulled out because she couldn't even drive well due to her sleep issues and drinking. It's a whole story that I don't think I could fit in a few sentences haha, but that was a short TLDR of it, I guess. Why was only middle school good? I relate to that to, I was much more naive back then.

 

[cripplecel]

My parents were a real nutsacket of crocked shit. It was constant arguments and alcoholism, which severely scarred my relationship with my Mother and Father. I was forcefully pulled out because she couldn't even drive well due to her sleep issues and drinking. It's a whole story that I don't think I could fit in a few sentences haha, but that was a short TLDR of it, I guess. Why was only middle school good? I relate to that to, I was much more naive back then.

I lucked out and was well known for once in my life. I didn’t even speak in school then cause I was autistic but normies didn’t hate me and wanted to hang out with me.

Literally only time I wasn’t like an alien and isolated.

 

[Nullified]

I wish I could go back in time so I can enjoy my childhood again and be in blissful ignorance of the adult world

 

[AnApparentMyth]

I lucked out and was well known for once in my life. I didn’t even speak in school then cause I was autistic but normies didn’t hate me and wanted to hang out with me.

Literally only time I wasn’t like an alien and isolated.

Damn, that must've felt nice for a while. I always felt isolated in my younger years, not even just rejections. This is why I say that we are literally on a different wavelength then normies. We operate and function way differently then them and they don't even know it. They KNOW how to socialize, and be a normal person. But we on the other hand are forced to be neets

How was your parents?

 

[cripplecel]

Damn, that must've felt nice for a while. I always felt isolated in my younger years, not even just rejections. This is why I say that we are literally on a different wavelength then normies. We operate and function way differently then them and they don't even know it. They KNOW how to socialize, and be a normal person. But we on the other hand are forced to be neets

How was your parents?

Yeah we are living in a different world to the normies. We are missing something that they have so we cannot function the same.

My parents were ok until like 5 years ago, then they start fighting every week. That has further caused my mind to be destroyed.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

Yeah we are living in a different world to the normies. We are missing something that they have so we cannot function the same.

My parents were ok until like 5 years ago, then they start fighting every week. That has further caused my mind to be destroyed.

Yeah, it's brutal because we as children probably WERE normal. I don't remember my baby life, but I know that I wasn't even awkward. Considering I made lots of friends as a child.

Same. My mother's dad and then all hell broke loose. My parents fight almost every day It's super sad and miserable. Do you love them? If I recall right, you are 22, right?

 

[cripplecel]

Yeah, it's brutal because we as children probably WERE normal. I don't remember my baby life, but I know that I wasn't even awkward. Considering I made lots of friends as a child.

Same. My mother's dad and then all hell broke loose. My parents fight almost every day It's super sad and miserable. Do you love them? If I recall right, you are 22, right?

I am 20

 

[AnApparentMyth]

I am 20

One year older, huh. What are your future plans? What do you think you will be doing in your mid 30s?