SuicideFuel My laughter and genuine smiles died. My life is nothing but negative emotions.

[Mainländer]

I feel nothing but a moody rollercoaster of negative emotions every day as of late. Despair, anxiety, sadness, desolation, disappointment, hatred, resentment, fear. My chest and stomach hurt, so hard that those feelings hit me.

Many things have changed. I haven't been able to actually laugh or smile. I only do those half-ass laughs and smiles in order to be polite with people. Also, I've been crying pretty often. This is really atypical of me, but this sadness is too strong.

I definitely need Jew pills if I want to hang on for much longer. Last time I went to the public hospital wards where you can get the prescription for such things, the psychiatric ward was closed due to covid and they sent me home. I'll try again these next days, I still have things to do before departing. Ideally, I would want to only go after my older relatives to spare them of the pain, but I don't know if I'll be able to.

 

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[PotatoTomato]

I definitely need Jew pills if I want to hang on for much longer. Last time I went to the public hospital wards where you can get the prescription for such things, the psychiatric ward was closed due to covid and they sent me home. I'll try again these next days, I still have things to do before going.

pls don't

 

[Shin no Shi]

pls don't

 

[Mainländer]

pls don't

Thank you bros. I'll do my best not to, at least not anytime soon. I greatly appreciate your esteem.

 

[Iwanttolive]

That's brutal.
Do u rmb ur old Avi btw?
Do u rmb ur old Avi btw?

 

[Transcended Trucel]

It’s over u should yoga or meditation cope

 

[Deleted member 27495]

all jew pills do is fuck up ur serotonin to the point of psychosis

 

[Billowel]

jewpills will do nothing but fuck up your life.You only want them because you hope it will assuage your pain.You will see no effect,but will continue taking them because you hope they will do something.don't do it.those pills can't solve your problems,but they sure as fuck can fuck up your body.God gave us this body so let's not destroy it.In case you ignore everything i say,just make it clear that you are not going to rope and don't act too crazy otherwise they might lock you up.

 

[Deleted member 27159]

I also can’t remember the last time I felt genuine happiness. I do feel temporarily happy after seeing some based lifefuel here but that’s it.

 

[Shigechi]

Go fuck some top hookers man. I know you live on shitzil too, so you know hookers here are relatively cheap. Look on gpguia for some whore who will treat you well.

 

[Made in Heaven]

Never take jew pills

 

[Mainländer]

That's brutal.
Do u rmb ur old Avi btw?
Do u rmb ur old Avi btw?

Which one?

It’s over u should yoga or meditation cope

I tried meditation some years ago and failed hard. I can't do it, tried many times.

all jew pills do is fuck up ur serotonin to the point of psychosis

jewpills will do nothing but fuck up your life.You only want them because you hope it will assuage your pain.You will see no effect,but will continue taking them because you hope they will do something.don't do it.those pills can't solve your problems,but they sure as fuck can fuck up your body.God gave us this body so let's not destroy it.In case you ignore everything i say,just make it clear that you are not going to rope and don't act too crazy otherwise they might lock you up.

I feel like giving it a try, but maybe it's better not to. A guy I know recently got antidepressants and he read all the side effects to me, brutal. There are way more side effects than benefits. But still, it's something I never tried, and lowering my libido is also a side effect I want.

Also, thanks and I'd never ignore your advice bro. I'm not acting crazy, people I live with just noticed my lack of laugher and smiles, especially my mom. I noticed she's treating me a bit better than usual these days, she probably can tell something's wrong with her son.

I also can’t remember the last time I felt genuine happiness. I do feel temporarily happy after seeing some based lifefuel here but that’s it.

Yeah, previously, I was at least able to have a laugh and forget about everything for a minute. But this is gone now. I can't even focus on things enough to find them funny.

Go fuck some top hookers man. I know you live on shitzil too, so you know hookers here are relatively cheap. Look on gpguia for some whore who will treat you well.

Thanks for the tip but if I have another terrible escort experience it'll probably only make things worse.

 

[Deleted member 27159]

Yeah, previously, I was at least able to have a laugh and forget about everything for a minute. But this is gone now. I can't even focus on things enough to find them funny.

I will probably lose this as well as the years pass on.

 

[Cope_Time]

Don't take the Jewpill.

 

[Gyros_Pretcel]

Barely related, but I noticed adapting the joker/clown world grin / laugh. Sometimes social services, police or parents ask me if they are a joke to me. If they just knew lel

 

[FlamingCel]

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death' or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.
Revelation 21 4

 

[TallCelFag]

Don’t do antidepressants and go for a night walk tonight and you will feel better.

 

[Deleted member 19116]

You swallowed the blackpill, the gnostics spoke about the dangers of the nihilistic void. See my signature, Jesus spoke about us incels and he gave us instructions to reach "gnosis" which is basically the whitepill.

 

[Words2_live_bye]

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[micropenis29]

Don't take the jewpills and don't give foids what they want, which is another incel roping.

Also, I've been crying pretty often.

Foids hate it when men cry, which means we should all be crying a lot more imho.

 

[The Abyss]

I feel nothing but a moody rollercoaster of negative emotions every day as of late. Despair, anxiety, sadness, desolation, disappointment, hatred, resentment, fear. My chest and stomach hurt, so hard that those feelings hit me.

Many things have changed. I haven't been able to actually laugh or smile. I only do those half-ass laughs and smiles in order to be polite with people. Also, I've been crying pretty often. This is really atypical of me, but this sadness is too strong.

I definitely need Jew pills if I want to hang on for much longer. Last time I went to the public hospital wards where you can get the prescription for such things, the psychiatric ward was closed due to covid and they sent me home. I'll try again these next days, I still have things to do before departing. Ideally, I would want to only go after my older relatives to spare them of the pain, but I don't know if I'll be able to.

Seriously though that's brutal, change some things you get minimal happiness from for something you may enjoy & hold on until it's too much.

 

[TruestBlackCel]

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Hop in that foreign, and that mothafucka be roaring

 

[Mainländer]

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death' or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.
Revelation 21 4

You swallowed the blackpill, the gnostics spoke about the dangers of the nihilistic void. See my signature, Jesus spoke about us incels and he gave us instructions to reach "gnosis" which is basically the whitepill.

Thanks for the reminder, brothers. I'll pray for faith rn.

Don't take the jewpills and don't give foids what they want, which is another incel roping.

Thanks, that's encouraging.

Don’t do antidepressants and go for a night walk tonight and you will feel better.

I think I'll travel to a neighbor city I like soon, by my own. I was feeling like doing it for a while, I just hope it doesn't put in a more emotional state. I always enjoyed those alone aimless little travels, but stopped doing them some time ago.

 

[Deleted member 29447]

Feel you bro that's how I mostly feel since 10 years. From time to time it also really hurts to see all these hot girls outside knowing what they will do with other guys in bed at night. Knowing that other guys get the pleasure of enjoying them but not me. Only thing that helps me is to try to completely forget women and ignore them. But since youre exposed to them everyday, at least when you go outside, this tactic is not working for long time mostly.

 

[Iwanttolive]

@Mainländer

Which one?

it was the one with the anime foid with fire iirc

 

[Mainländer]

Feel you bro that's how I mostly feel since 10 years. From time to time it also really hurts to see all these hot girls outside knowing what they will do with other guys in bed at night. Knowing that other guys get the pleasure of enjoying them but not me. Only thing that helps me is to try to completely forget women and ignore them. But since youre exposed to them everyday, at least when you go outside, this tactic is not working for long time mostly.

Try to always keep in mind that those foids won't ever be able to care for or love you. AWALT.

it was the one with the anime foid with fire iirc

What about her? It's Asuka from Evangelion if you wanted to know.

 

[Deleted member 17719]

I need jew pills too, I don't understand why so many incels are against them. What have we to lose? Our minds are already torn to pieces and you say jew pills are bad because they mess with your chemicals?

all jew pills do is fuck up ur serotonin to the point of psychosis

Well that is going to happen without jew pills anyway so why not give them a try

 

[Studiocel]

I feel nothing but a moody rollercoaster of negative emotions every day as of late. Despair, anxiety, sadness, desolation, disappointment, hatred, resentment, fear. My chest and stomach hurt, so hard that those feelings hit me.

Many things have changed. I haven't been able to actually laugh or smile. I only do those half-ass laughs and smiles in order to be polite with people. Also, I've been crying pretty often. This is really atypical of me, but this sadness is too strong.

I definitely need Jew pills if I want to hang on for much longer. Last time I went to the public hospital wards where you can get the prescription for such things, the psychiatric ward was closed due to covid and they sent me home. I'll try again these next days, I still have things to do before departing. Ideally, I would want to only go after my older relatives to spare them of the pain, but I don't know if I'll be able to.

I like your music dude dont rope

 

[Mainländer]

I like your music dude dont rope

I really appreciate it. I finished recording everything for my album earlier today. Spent the whole night recording bass tracks. I was so depressed and drowsy I made a lot more mistakes than usual, but the guy I recorded with was patient with me and it worked out in the end. Now we'll produce it before I can release it.

 

[Ellviss]

jewpills fucks the mental health

 

[Iwanttolive]

Try to always keep in mind that those foids won't ever be able to care for or love you. AWALT.


What about her? It's Asuka from Evangelion if you wanted to know.

Nah it's not asuka, it's the other one

 

[Mainländer]

Nah it's not asuka, it's the other one

Foid with fire? Almost all my avis are listed here.

 

[Iwanttolive]

Foid with fire? Almost all my avis are listed here.

Damn. I think I mixed u up with someone else. In sorry

 

[your personality]

Many things have changed. I haven't been able to actually laugh or smile. I only do those half-ass laughs and smiles in order to be polite with people. Also, I've been crying pretty often. This is really atypical of me, but this sadness is too strong.

When you try to keep yourself from getting angry you cry more imo.
The frustration has to leave one way or the other and when you try your best to moderate your anger and feelings of frustration it manifests itself as prolonged sadness.

 

[randomguy1235]

all jew pills do is fuck up ur serotonin to the point of psychosis

Never take jew pills

 

[Mainländer]

I like ur songs ngl

Thanks bro!

When you try to keep yourself from getting angry you cry more imo.
The frustration has to leave one way or the other and when you try your best to moderate your anger and feelings of frustration it manifests itself as prolonged sadness.

True. I regret some of the harsh things I said while venting here these last days but yeah, it's just that, venting about how terrible I feel.