RealSchizo
race, height, body structure, face victim
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- Joined
- Nov 22, 2022
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I wish I had a certain future. That would have been very calming and peaceful to me. Not knowing what is going to happen in my life sucks and it always turns out to be something very bad that mentally cripples me even further. I am afraid of not giving a fuck anymore I may end up as a heroin addict at this point.
The more traumatized and wounded I get from my life the more I stop caring about what I do. I've reached a point where I can predict people's behaviour towards me. Being so self-conscious yet not giving a fuck at the same time.
If I fail college my parents will scream at me and will force me to get a job which is worse but I have no motivation to study. I cannot bring myself to do anything but lay in my bed.
I am nowhere in life. I have no drivers license, no work experience , nothing. I am fucked.
The more traumatized and wounded I get from my life the more I stop caring about what I do. I've reached a point where I can predict people's behaviour towards me. Being so self-conscious yet not giving a fuck at the same time.
If I fail college my parents will scream at me and will force me to get a job which is worse but I have no motivation to study. I cannot bring myself to do anything but lay in my bed.
I am nowhere in life. I have no drivers license, no work experience , nothing. I am fucked.