He was in a call with me and screen sharing. He found this chubby redhead girl with big tits and he talked to her like nothing at all bothered him. Soon she was licking her lips and even TOOK OFF HER FUCKING BRA for him. Didn't get to see titties but still. They talked for about a good 20 minutes until she had to leave. Then afterwards he told me how "easy" it is to talk to women and get a girlfriend. He doesn't seem to understand that i have social anxiety and minor autism, and of course incel looks.
He tells me that the thing ultimately stopping me from getting a girlfriend is my fear. He says i must kill the fear, and then i will be able to overcome my fears.
Then he told me that even if i DO get a girlfriend that i won't be satisfied, and that happiness and fulfillment comes from "within yourself" and that money and relationships will never make me happy. I don't even know what level of "pill" we are on at this point. It's like a mix of red blue and black pills all into one.
Anyway, lowkey seeing him talk to her, and how she looked back at him almost made me sick and empty feeling inside. It made me jealous, mad, depressed, interested, envious and even left me wanting to learn how to do such things. Whether or not i take his advice and kill the fear to get happiness, we shall see. I'm the procrastinator of the century, and also lazy and afraid.
He tells me that the thing ultimately stopping me from getting a girlfriend is my fear. He says i must kill the fear, and then i will be able to overcome my fears.
Then he told me that even if i DO get a girlfriend that i won't be satisfied, and that happiness and fulfillment comes from "within yourself" and that money and relationships will never make me happy. I don't even know what level of "pill" we are on at this point. It's like a mix of red blue and black pills all into one.
Anyway, lowkey seeing him talk to her, and how she looked back at him almost made me sick and empty feeling inside. It made me jealous, mad, depressed, interested, envious and even left me wanting to learn how to do such things. Whether or not i take his advice and kill the fear to get happiness, we shall see. I'm the procrastinator of the century, and also lazy and afraid.
