Nothing eases my immense suffering more than witnessing my mother's emotional degradation over the past 25 years. She has contributed to my involuntary celibacy in so many different ways and will now have to live with never having any grandchildren. Her older sister (my aunt) is blessed with a new grandkid every few years while my mother cries herself to sleep every night, knowing that neither my brother or I have any hope of giving her grandkids of her own.
It didn't have to be this way. She was, by all accounts, a very attractive woman when she was younger. According to my grandmother, she dated all sorts of rich, powerful, tall, and attractive men growing up. She had every opportunity to mate with a real Chad and produce 6'3 - 6'6 sons like her older sister did. But no. She waited until her late-20s to settle down and boy did she settle! My dad is 5'7, physically frail, ugly as sin, wears trifocals, has the worst case of Asperger's Syndrome that you will ever see, acts submissive around everyone he comes in contact with, and was in his late-30s when he had me and my brother. Way to piss away your genetics, mom!
She also contributed to my stunted personality by remaining distant, going decades without initiating a conversation with me, siding with my bullies who mercilessly tormented me throughout my formative years, and betraying my trust by walking into my room with a knife one night when she thought I was asleep.
Financially, she inherited over $500,000 USD from deceased relatives and squandered every last dollar on her fucking addictions (smoking, drinking, eating, shopping, etc.) On top of that, she has also spent nearly all of my dad's life's savings, ensuring that my brother and I will never receive the same inheritance that she received on numerous occasions. She only thinks of herself and presumably only married my beta father to have an easy ride in life. Well, that ride will come to a screeching halt when my father is no longer around because I don't plan on supporting her with the way she has mistreated me all these years. If there's any justice in this world, she will die in squalor, lonely and full of regret.
It didn't have to be this way. She was, by all accounts, a very attractive woman when she was younger. According to my grandmother, she dated all sorts of rich, powerful, tall, and attractive men growing up. She had every opportunity to mate with a real Chad and produce 6'3 - 6'6 sons like her older sister did. But no. She waited until her late-20s to settle down and boy did she settle! My dad is 5'7, physically frail, ugly as sin, wears trifocals, has the worst case of Asperger's Syndrome that you will ever see, acts submissive around everyone he comes in contact with, and was in his late-30s when he had me and my brother. Way to piss away your genetics, mom!
She also contributed to my stunted personality by remaining distant, going decades without initiating a conversation with me, siding with my bullies who mercilessly tormented me throughout my formative years, and betraying my trust by walking into my room with a knife one night when she thought I was asleep.
Financially, she inherited over $500,000 USD from deceased relatives and squandered every last dollar on her fucking addictions (smoking, drinking, eating, shopping, etc.) On top of that, she has also spent nearly all of my dad's life's savings, ensuring that my brother and I will never receive the same inheritance that she received on numerous occasions. She only thinks of herself and presumably only married my beta father to have an easy ride in life. Well, that ride will come to a screeching halt when my father is no longer around because I don't plan on supporting her with the way she has mistreated me all these years. If there's any justice in this world, she will die in squalor, lonely and full of regret.
