black_depresso
You won't change reality, friend
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It was a family dinner I cooked for everyone (7 people including me) but once we started eating, the conversation quickly shifted to why I’m doing so little with my life. This post
is relating to the pinned thread about “being good looking gives you a vigour for life”
Family complained I just do my job and then in my free time only play video games and watch movies. They said I need to go out and be social, meet people, make connections and enjoy my youth, they said I need to figure out how to make more money, do investing, entrepreneurship etc and start earning lots of money from creative pursuits. They want be to do more self development, learn some real skills in life for personal pleasure too, like playing a musical instrument or something,
Every one of my family members repeatedly brings this up every now and again, and it is infuriating. I’ve told them, every single time, just as the “vigour for life” thread memtioned
I just don’t have the desire or motivation to do anything. My whole life, I’ve received no validation or encouragement from anyone. I received no special results from any natural talent in anything I do. I never made friends, and never pursued social networks, went to parties and became part of my social youth community in high school and university
I don’t have a “vigour for life”. My cousin, who’s a successful chad doctor. Is constantly reading finance books, philosophy books, random ass self help shit, how to live a better life. He has a motivation and vigour for it. And of course he would. He has grown up as a fucking CHAD. He WANTS to go out and enjoy life. His life has been fun, the world has worked for him, and with him. My life hasn’t been fun.
And yet my family acts surprised when I tell them I don’t care. I don’t care about self development and enrichment. I don’t care about being an entrepreneur and getting rich with random investment and financial ideas. I don’t care about being a “model citizen” who is constantly productive and striving to succeed and striving to achieve in life.
Im exhausted with the lack of organic pleasure, spontaneity and enrichment you can only get out of life if youre good looking
I am perfectly content with an average job, being an average citizen, living alone, enjoying video games, good food till I die. Life hasn’t encouraged me to pursue any more, and frankly, even if it suddenly did, I really wouldn’t want to. I’m not good looking, and I miss out on the entirety of what life gives you, when you are good looking. I’m never going to experience the best parts of life. I’d rather die than continue grinding life like the mindless ogre I am, but I don’t have the courage to kill myself
So leave me alone, dear family. Let me LDAR in peace.
is relating to the pinned thread about “being good looking gives you a vigour for life”
Family complained I just do my job and then in my free time only play video games and watch movies. They said I need to go out and be social, meet people, make connections and enjoy my youth, they said I need to figure out how to make more money, do investing, entrepreneurship etc and start earning lots of money from creative pursuits. They want be to do more self development, learn some real skills in life for personal pleasure too, like playing a musical instrument or something,
Every one of my family members repeatedly brings this up every now and again, and it is infuriating. I’ve told them, every single time, just as the “vigour for life” thread memtioned
I just don’t have the desire or motivation to do anything. My whole life, I’ve received no validation or encouragement from anyone. I received no special results from any natural talent in anything I do. I never made friends, and never pursued social networks, went to parties and became part of my social youth community in high school and university
I don’t have a “vigour for life”. My cousin, who’s a successful chad doctor. Is constantly reading finance books, philosophy books, random ass self help shit, how to live a better life. He has a motivation and vigour for it. And of course he would. He has grown up as a fucking CHAD. He WANTS to go out and enjoy life. His life has been fun, the world has worked for him, and with him. My life hasn’t been fun.
And yet my family acts surprised when I tell them I don’t care. I don’t care about self development and enrichment. I don’t care about being an entrepreneur and getting rich with random investment and financial ideas. I don’t care about being a “model citizen” who is constantly productive and striving to succeed and striving to achieve in life.
Im exhausted with the lack of organic pleasure, spontaneity and enrichment you can only get out of life if youre good looking
I am perfectly content with an average job, being an average citizen, living alone, enjoying video games, good food till I die. Life hasn’t encouraged me to pursue any more, and frankly, even if it suddenly did, I really wouldn’t want to. I’m not good looking, and I miss out on the entirety of what life gives you, when you are good looking. I’m never going to experience the best parts of life. I’d rather die than continue grinding life like the mindless ogre I am, but I don’t have the courage to kill myself
So leave me alone, dear family. Let me LDAR in peace.
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