I recently got home from my venture outside in normieland.
My mother kept begging me to go out with her so I did to make her happy.
We went to some old homestead to walk around with my father and brother, there was a loud festival going on. I don't like loud sounds for a few reasons.
1. Its a hyper NT thing since loud sounds is usually for parties raves concerts etc. which I do not enjoy and I do not fare well in these environments being a non NT incel.
2. I have a slight anxiety or PTSD of loud sounds, if you suddenly slam a door near me, or clap your hands loudly in my ear I will shake like a leaf, this is due to childhood trauma, I used to have to live in a house with my schizofrenic brother, if you so much as made a peep he would suddenly get very violent attacking people and objects.
So already the festival annoyed me, then I saw the foids attending the festival, they all looked like they were carelessly having fun dancing to the music, they all appeared to heightmog me too and that was before considering they were all in heels, the area also reeked of alcohol too.
I walked away from the festival and just leaned on a fence by myself, the subtle sound of the music drumming up the hill to me and I looked out at the rolling hills just thinking about my life. I rejoined my family walking around a bit and then we got back in the car and we drove to a park area, what I saw here inspired me to actually make this post.
I saw what must have been a 9 or 10 year old foid wearing yoga pants, she barely even had an ass to show off but her pre puberscent ass was on full display in those yoga pants, she at least was with her mother and father but still, I think its completely abhorent for a child to wear slut pants like that, are you not worried about paedophiles stealing your child? Or just making sure your child has any sort of decency? Needless to say she will probably have sex in a few years if she dresses like that and I will still be rotting and sexless and she will be chad only.
Observing all these normies at the park and the festival I felt so lonely and outcasted, even my father made a comment that said we just walk around like lost souls and its true, its like we dont belong at all, I have always felt this way.
My mother kept begging me to go out with her so I did to make her happy.
We went to some old homestead to walk around with my father and brother, there was a loud festival going on. I don't like loud sounds for a few reasons.
1. Its a hyper NT thing since loud sounds is usually for parties raves concerts etc. which I do not enjoy and I do not fare well in these environments being a non NT incel.
2. I have a slight anxiety or PTSD of loud sounds, if you suddenly slam a door near me, or clap your hands loudly in my ear I will shake like a leaf, this is due to childhood trauma, I used to have to live in a house with my schizofrenic brother, if you so much as made a peep he would suddenly get very violent attacking people and objects.
So already the festival annoyed me, then I saw the foids attending the festival, they all looked like they were carelessly having fun dancing to the music, they all appeared to heightmog me too and that was before considering they were all in heels, the area also reeked of alcohol too.
I walked away from the festival and just leaned on a fence by myself, the subtle sound of the music drumming up the hill to me and I looked out at the rolling hills just thinking about my life. I rejoined my family walking around a bit and then we got back in the car and we drove to a park area, what I saw here inspired me to actually make this post.
I saw what must have been a 9 or 10 year old foid wearing yoga pants, she barely even had an ass to show off but her pre puberscent ass was on full display in those yoga pants, she at least was with her mother and father but still, I think its completely abhorent for a child to wear slut pants like that, are you not worried about paedophiles stealing your child? Or just making sure your child has any sort of decency? Needless to say she will probably have sex in a few years if she dresses like that and I will still be rotting and sexless and she will be chad only.
Observing all these normies at the park and the festival I felt so lonely and outcasted, even my father made a comment that said we just walk around like lost souls and its true, its like we dont belong at all, I have always felt this way.
