J
21, Full time porn watch for the last 5 years (only just turned 21), after I got circumcised 5 years ago I went hard on the porn and shit because I properly jerk for the most part, the heads still too sensitive to touch a lot but the rest is fine. Anyway, I have to give it up if I am going to be a teacher at the end of my degree, and in general being a degenerate is not what my mother wants for me, don't watch it it's not necessary with all the stuff on tv and I agree, but it's also how I am narcissistic, constantly getting dopamine and meeting my 'needs' with porn. I am a user of people really no matter if I am generous with money or time, I'm still a covert narcissist and if I ever went through any abuse in my life I might have a reason for how I am, but no, I'm a sincere degenerate if not sincere or authentic elsewhere. Is there a possibility of giving it up and not like replace one thing with another. I don’t have a girlfriend and character wise no woman should be in a relationship with me at all. I appreciate it and I don’t condone any bad acts toward women even though I watch porn. I wish I didn’t go down the porn rabbit hole what a fucking little dickhead I was then and am now.
