A few years ago, I could pretty easily force myself to speak to someone new, just to ask for them to take a photo of me or something, or to try and approach a girl, or ask for directions, etc.
But I feel now, as a result of how socidty, but mainly foids, have treated me and made me feel, (worthless, not worthy of anyone's time, ugly, unconfident and afraid that I'd be bothering anyone who has the displeasure of speaking to me) I feel severely uncomfortable.
I have a few underlying mental health issues, so I've never actually felt that comfortable in my own skin, or with life.
Just today, a girl complimented my shirt. That was really interesting, it was a parasyte (manga) shirt. But then I started speaking to her more, and she kinda just drifted away, her responses became shorter, she stopped looking at me as much.
Its like she saw my shirt, but didn't get a good look at my face. For all those people on fourms that say it's our "personality," I'm sure for some of us it is, but for a majority of us, it really isn't. I feel as if I had a different face, i probably would've gotten somewhere with her.
I don't know. I don't have the confidence to go back and speak to her, wherever she is now. Years of getting only 1 match per 7 months on dating apps, never going on a date, being left on read, ignored, feeling unheard, feeling like my existence is unseen.
"Just have confidence bro!"
It's all but been sapped out of me. How are you supposed to feel confident when you're constantly told and treated like you're undeserving of living?
Im not sure how much more I can take, every day has some other major problem that causes me grief. I dont like being here, man
But I feel now, as a result of how socidty, but mainly foids, have treated me and made me feel, (worthless, not worthy of anyone's time, ugly, unconfident and afraid that I'd be bothering anyone who has the displeasure of speaking to me) I feel severely uncomfortable.
I have a few underlying mental health issues, so I've never actually felt that comfortable in my own skin, or with life.
Just today, a girl complimented my shirt. That was really interesting, it was a parasyte (manga) shirt. But then I started speaking to her more, and she kinda just drifted away, her responses became shorter, she stopped looking at me as much.
Its like she saw my shirt, but didn't get a good look at my face. For all those people on fourms that say it's our "personality," I'm sure for some of us it is, but for a majority of us, it really isn't. I feel as if I had a different face, i probably would've gotten somewhere with her.
I don't know. I don't have the confidence to go back and speak to her, wherever she is now. Years of getting only 1 match per 7 months on dating apps, never going on a date, being left on read, ignored, feeling unheard, feeling like my existence is unseen.
"Just have confidence bro!"
It's all but been sapped out of me. How are you supposed to feel confident when you're constantly told and treated like you're undeserving of living?
Im not sure how much more I can take, every day has some other major problem that causes me grief. I dont like being here, man
