Can't you distinguish being submissive/cucked from being attracted to a foid? These are conceptually different and mentally require different states of mind. Being attracted is a precondition, but you've done exactly what I warned about and conflated attraction with worship. Paris Hilton level IQ here.
Since you're gay, you can try all you want - but you're not going to get rid of the fact that men are attracted to foids. The point is to defeat feminism, saying attraction is the problem is self-defeating and concedes victory to feminists who use our mine and many other mens natural desire to control us. This is nothing new - foids have always tried this but men were more based before feminism and other periods in history, so it's possible to resist and put women in their place.