So i kept waking up during the night, Sometimes its too cold sometimes its too hot
I slept around 4 hours or so, Its now 6:22 and i fell asleep quite late yesterday
health issues and the insane heat making me shower every morning
is insane.
Today i am forced to goto the city with my parents, Ive been bedbound alot recently
The chronic pain and all and barely sleeping and barely eating, Last time i ate was around 2
days ago, Inceldom is making me mentally ill, People stare at me weirdly, I should just LDAR
more, Going outside as a mistake is not easy, People avoiding me, Staring at me, Trying to trick me
Whatver, I just wanna forget the whole world, The brutal part is the agepill, Im aging everyday
and im stuck in inceldom, I see others make happy memories im excluded from, And everything i do
is never enough for my parents, I cant choose my genetics ive told them, They just wont understand
ive even found them studies Mom: Bullshit Stepdad: You gotta find other people that dont care about looks
Well where are they?? Where are they? You want me to have friends but cant tell me where they are?
So much family expectations and even when im bedbound they still expect me to perform like nothing happened.
Im so sick of my parents, Family, People outside, Food prices, Heat, Cars, Stares, kids on bikes making fun of my crooked spine.
Inside my home i can LDAR in safety atleast until i perish from my health conditions, I have so low energy and can barely sleep.
I spend most of my waking hours on incels.is i feel so lonely in this world, Like just abandoned by normies, Mom tells me go outside
and socialize, WITH WHO? WITH WHO?, And who wants to socialize with a NEET looser that is ugly, Can barely walk anymore and is bedbound
When im somewhat optimal and can walk i walk down to the store and i buy food, The prices is just like inviting terrorists to my home, Jews are
getting greedier every day, Why cant we incels have friends and a normal life too? There is a soul inside this body not just our outsides, Havent
they learnt in kindergarten to socialize and respect eachother, People acting like oversized children the second someone unusual looking arrives
in their peripheral, How can someone live like this, Mom be like: I want to send you to college maybe you can find some friends or a girlfriend
me ends up rotting on my dorm room playing PS3 because no one wants to hang out or ostracize me or say i did this and this and this when it isnt true
and then try to trick me or belittle me, Everything i do always seem wrong to people no matter what, I could be looking at a rock and i would still be seen
as worse a dictator because of how i look like, I can even be polite or helpful but still called a creep or looked down upon, It feels sickening.
Theres a reason people drop out of society, Bullying, Inceldom, Not enough job oppertunities or the fact they arent welcomed in society.
And now my pet is sick ontop of all this and the animal hospital charges Eons of cash just for a few days,
I hope my cat insurance can cover it, Id rather starve than give up on the only living organism that cares about me.
Im tired guys, I dont feel like fighting no more, My body is giving out, This life is a gift they say, Well for some, Not me.
TLDR
Health issues, Cat is sick, Normies, Bullying, Ostrazation, Inceldom, Etc
