Venting Meds decrease my basedness

[Deleted member 24297]

Venlafaxine 375mg, quetiapine seroquel XR 450 mg .

When I skip a dose of the antipsychotic Im extremely aggitated, harsh, hostile, aggressive yet a good source of energy for those on my frequency and when the right friends are visiting its awesome and I bring a lot of life to the gathering . Thoughts start racing at a comfy level and I feel invinceable. I can lash out without thinking about it due to lowinhib maxxed and not caring about anything.

Last year I didnt sleep from januari till august (4hrs a month max). I pulled a tazer on 7 nurses that were doing severe abuse to the mental patients including me. People suicided on their watch and one patient was kicked and beaten while in a catatonic state. My dad and me brought the patient to an emergency room after where the patient got a lot of fentanyl and morphine due to the degree of the damage. After the pt was escorded back to the clinic they locked the pt up so that no police raport could be filed. They denied me freedom and my own food. When they were intentionally pushing my buttons and locked my room to come with 7+ nurses to push me down and bring to the isolation unit I pulled out a tazer on them until police jailed me.



I remember last year I was walking thru the city for days and meet a Serb excon that had done 18 years for murder. We were walking together but he was very paranoid cause a car was following us. When the car pumped on the gas pedal and speed up to us with blinding lights at our direction he yelled "theyre gonna shoot!!". I duck behind a car and thought well this is it they gonna put me in the ground guilt by association they dont know I only just meet this guy. The car hit the breaks next to the car I duck behind. I was fully 100% convinced that were my last moments and thought to myself that I could pray to God for forgiveness or ask for mercy. But then I was like " fuck that shit Im not gonna kneel for no one not for God not for anything. Even if it means burning in hell for all of eternity Im not gonna kneel for one second.".

Police undercover stepped out.

Later I continued communicating with wrong people and then decided to break all contact with them. A few hours later 20 black cars pull up in front of my house but I managed to escape. Police wanted to know who these people were I told them I rather die like a man than live with a rat.

However the saga ended up in being escorted by ambulance and police into a psychiatric crisis hospital and put in the isolation unit. The guard tried to give me a fistbump but I told him now I bump your fist next time its your nose. In the isolation cel.I lost it and hallucinated supermario soundtrack which I wasnt sure if it was the angels playing the harp telling me I unlocked the mystery of the universe (that it was all a joke) or the devils sirenes luring me deeper into the abyss of insanity. I got a Donald Duck magazine in my cel to calm down but I saw it as my personal bible as I recognized the lifestory of all the people in my life. I put it in a corner and didnt dare look at the corner anymore. Then I wrote the name of my lawyer with urine on the wall and thru the piss bucket at the camera. I felt bad for the guard who had to clean it up and wanted to makr it right so I shared with him divinr insight into why cats pee in unfamiliar places (not hostility but fear). When the doc came I threatened him to keep me locked up and if they were to return me to the previous abusive hospital Id murder everyone working there. i wore a shirt that said Gun Owners of America but wore it inside out. When I was alone with the doc I pulled it off and reversed it so the text was visible and told him to see see if I was bluffing.




When Im off my meds Im more based cause with them its like a muzzle / chastity belt. But without it for too long I start being a frotmouthing lunatic with rabies. If I miss the two daily dosages (morning, evening) the snowball starts rolling.

I missed one dosage now and notice Im already too lowinhib embarassingly oversharing so ill screenshot this as a reminder even though meds may cuck me I cuck myself otherwise and will realize that the moment I wake up after meds induced sleep.


Now I feel this thread is good tomorrow probobly not but Im not surr am not a nostradamuscel

Efit
Sorry for the shit thrrad and thank yui all fir putting uo wirh me you wre family for real i lovr you guys

 

[Indari]

bro what?
you live in the netherlands right?

 

[Deleted member 24297]

bro what?
you live in the netherlands right?

Yea

 

[Indari]

Yea

psych wards are shit everywhere. humanity should be nuked

 

[Deleted member 24297]

psych wards are shit everywhere. humanity should be nuked

Yea and my experience is prov nothing compated to like eastern countris

 

[Tenshi]

jfl I've read baldness

 

[Deleted member 24297]

jfl I've read baldness

Still hairmogging

 

[Ritalincel]

antipsychotic
Antipsychotics are a class of drugs based on some fancy carbon based compounds. They act on the nervous system in too many ways to count. The reality of these drugs is that, if you're capable of reading this, then you need to address the underlying problems. I've never had biological psychosis but that doesn't stop doctors from branding me as a permanent head case. I can't say whether these drugs work in severe cases or not, but I think that's probably irrelevant because people crazy enough to depend on this shit are probably SOL regardless of any treatments. Doctors call antipsychotics 'tough stuff' and they resereve that term for all but the most severe treatments. These drugs will get you banned from the military. They may cause you to be a 'drunk' driver regardless of alcohol consumption. Please don't drive on them, I did and I then realized I had to quit them. They increase alcohols effects, and no it's not pleasant. They make you tired and hungry. If you have any doubts whether you need them, then I can tell you that you don't. If your certain then I can't offer you advice. However, if you were placed on these as a child, I am almost 100% certain that you were conned like I was, and you need to rebuild your life. These drugs are very strange in that they are similar to tranquilizers with none of the pleasant effects. Anyways, if you're on these, I suggest you stop them because the drug companies won't conduct proper studies on these drugs because these studies 'wouldn't be ethical'.
Oh and they want you to take these drugs not because they make life better, but because it's cheaper for the government to have you doped up then acting in an anti capitolistic fashion. To sum it up, the people who might need an 'antipsychotic' (ones that would actualy make positive changes!) would never read this because they live forever in hospitals.
The government makes people take antipsychotics not for their health, but because it's cheaper than having them in hospital undergoing a more radical treatment.
by Mitch99 September 21, 2007

 

[Deleted member 24297]

antipsychotic
Antipsychotics are a class of drugs based on some fancy carbon based compounds. They act on the nervous system in too many ways to count. The reality of these drugs is that, if you're capable of reading this, then you need to address the underlying problems. I've never had biological psychosis but that doesn't stop doctors from branding me as a permanent head case. I can't say whether these drugs work in severe cases or not, but I think that's probably irrelevant because people crazy enough to depend on this shit are probably SOL regardless of any treatments. Doctors call antipsychotics 'tough stuff' and they resereve that term for all but the most severe treatments. These drugs will get you banned from the military. They may cause you to be a 'drunk' driver regardless of alcohol consumption. Please don't drive on them, I did and I then realized I had to quit them. They increase alcohols effects, and no it's not pleasant. They make you tired and hungry. If you have any doubts whether you need them, then I can tell you that you don't. If your certain then I can't offer you advice. However, if you were placed on these as a child, I am almost 100% certain that you were conned like I was, and you need to rebuild your life. These drugs are very strange in that they are similar to tranquilizers with none of the pleasant effects. Anyways, if you're on these, I suggest you stop them because the drug companies won't conduct proper studies on these drugs because these studies 'wouldn't be ethical'.
Oh and they want you to take these drugs not because they make life better, but because it's cheaper for the government to have you doped up then acting in an anti capitolistic fashion. To sum it up, the people who might need an 'antipsychotic' (ones that would actualy make positive changes!) would never read this because they live forever in hospitals.
The government makes people take antipsychotics not for their health, but because it's cheaper than having them in hospital undergoing a more radical treatment.
by Mitch99 September 21, 2007

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Two of 5-7 dosages a day whilest in the good hospital. I needed it at that time tbh but due to medical abuse by the last clinic I didnt sleep for 6 months and that burned my wires perhaps permanently so may not ever get free of APs.

The last hospital quit 10 meds on max dosage in one day. They locked my door for 2 weeks so I was in suicide vest for 2 weeks puking in my stripped room and Icouldnt clean it because not allowed cleaning material or bathroom visit (had to shit and puss in cardboard bucket) and they left the puke and feces just sitting there for 2 weeks until my mom came to visit me. They also never tested my lithium levels even though that has to happen every month. One day they said "our pharmacy doesnt make 50mg tablets anymore so now youll just take 1200 instead of 1250mg " . Lithium has to be measured ultra precise.

They also denied me going outside for 6 months including seeing my parents and family.

They also put bags of streetdrugs and weapons in my room while I never touched or saw that stuff . I asked whered you find this they said in your coat after police jailed you. I said oh thats interesting cause they searched my coat and I took it with me to jail. Then I demanded to see the items and report of them. They backtracked . I lawyered up and eventually they said "sorry it was never there it was a human mistake". Fuckers tries to frame me

When I ordered a pizza the staff ate it.

They tried to hide information about suicided patients but because we saw body bag cars parking and patients who saw it we all knew and pressured the stadd until they finally admitted the deaths.

 

[Ritalincel]

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Two of 5-7 dosages a day whilest in the good hospital. I needed it at that time tbh but due to medical abuse by the last clinic I didnt sleep for 6 months and that burned my wires perhaps permanently so may not ever get free of APs.

The last hospital quit 10 meds on max dosage in one day. They locked my door for 2 weeks so I was in suicide vest for 2 weeks puking in my stripped room and Icouldnt clean it because not allowed cleaning material or bathroom visit (had to shit and puss in cardboard bucket) and they left the puke and feces just sitting there for 2 weeks until my mom came to visit me. They also never tested my lithium levels even though that has to happen every month. One day they said "our pharmacy doesnt make 50mg tablets anymore so now youll just take 1200 instead of 1250mg " . Lithium has to be measured ultra precise.

They also denied me going outside for 6 months including seeing my parents and family.

They also put bags of streetdrugs and weapons in my room while I never touched or saw that stuff . I asked whered you find this they said in your coat after police jailed you. I said oh thats interesting cause they searched my coat and I took it with me to jail. Then I demanded to see the items and report of them. They backtracked . I lawyered up and eventually they said "sorry it was never there it was a human mistake". Fuckers tries to frame me

When I ordered a pizza the staff ate it.

They tried to hide information about suicided patients but because we saw body bag cars parking and patients who saw it we all knew and pressured the stadd until they finally admitted the deaths.

Oh bro

 

[Emba]

That's very interesting

 

[Deleted member 24297]

Ok am clear again. Apologies for the bawwwing shitstorm. Nvm this entire thread. Embarassed af for reading this whining shit.

 

[proudWEED ha ha]

damn dude. shit sounds like something outta movie

 

[OwlGod]

Two of 5-7 dosages a day whilest in the good hospital. I needed it at that time tbh but due to medical abuse by the last clinic I didnt sleep for 6 months and that burned my wires perhaps permanently so may not ever get free of APs.

The last hospital quit 10 meds on max dosage in one day. They locked my door for 2 weeks so I was in suicide vest for 2 weeks puking in my stripped room and Icouldnt clean it because not allowed cleaning material or bathroom visit (had to shit and puss in cardboard bucket) and they left the puke and feces just sitting there for 2 weeks until my mom came to visit me. They also never tested my lithium levels even though that has to happen every month. One day they said "our pharmacy doesnt make 50mg tablets anymore so now youll just take 1200 instead of 1250mg " . Lithium has to be measured ultra precise.

They also denied me going outside for 6 months including seeing my parents and family.

They also put bags of streetdrugs and weapons in my room while I never touched or saw that stuff . I asked whered you find this they said in your coat after police jailed you. I said oh thats interesting cause they searched my coat and I took it with me to jail. Then I demanded to see the items and report of them. They backtracked . I lawyered up and eventually they said "sorry it was never there it was a human mistake". Fuckers tries to frame me

When I ordered a pizza the staff ate it.

They tried to hide information about suicided patients but because we saw body bag cars parking and patients who saw it we all knew and pressured the stadd until they finally admitted the deaths.

Dude jfl this can't be real

 

[Deleted member 27161]

Stopped taking mine a while ago feel much more powerful without em