Experiment Medicinecels any help?

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I was laughed at once in the lunch break for doing weird expressions while eating or staring at nothing or doing something really autistic or stuttering or taking a long time to answer or saying something really stupid as an answer because I didn't understand what was being told to me. I tried so hard not to do those over the years but I couldn't. I'm 26 years old as of now and nothing I've done worked, including therapy which was a big mistake. I reached the conclusion that there's no fix or a way to deal with my autism.

guys I give up. I'm going the medicine abuse route. I want to curb my autism badly even if the cost is my body/brain health. fuck coping or trying to better my life I want to feel how is it to be normal even if it is a short period.

so what medicine should I abuse out of these three?
-prozac
-cymbalta
-ritalin

 

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I actually got prescribed cymbalta and fluexetine before. not retalin. but I think ritalin could help as well

 

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guys I give up. I'm going the medicine abuse route. I want to curb my autism badly even if the cost is my body/brain health. fuck coping or trying to better my life I want to feel how is it to be normal even if it is a short period.

so what medicine should I abuse out of these three?
-prozac
-cymbalta
-ritalin

I think my brain would likely need something so fucking potent like anti epileptics or getting electrocuted with electrotherapy to straighten those signals