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I've been trying for the past few years to not just get a girlfriend, but to get friends to. I left all my friends in HS because they weren't really my friends. They made fun of me and talked about me behind my back. When I betrayed by one of my best friends, I was absolutely crushed. I went for them to help and they blow me off. They told me that I was being a bitch and should grow a pair and stop complaining. I've had very bad depression since then and it's gotten to the point were I am thinking about seriously killing myself.
No matter how hard I try to make friends no one seems interested in being my friend. I try to be friendly, funny, I try to relating to them and all of the other things that a person might do to make friends. I wear nice clothes when I go out, not just throwing on whatever old shirt I find. Usually a button down and jeans. I also shower a few times a day and use deodorant and cologne, so it can't be my BO.
Im starting to think, what is wrong with me? If I have tried talking with a lot of people and no one seems interested in being my friend. If everyone I meet doesn't want to be my friend then there is something obviously wrong with me, because I am the thing that is the same in all of these encounters.
I've honest just given up. I don't know what else I can do. I hate seeing all of these social butterflies making friends so easily. I don't really hate them, I just wish that I had the same charisma, and that people wanted to be my friend and actively pursed me like they do those people. I've been told that Im charismatic and funny and all of those things, I just dont see it. I see myself as really awkward and nervous around people.Even when I don't think negatively and try to think positively I just revert to being nervous.
No matter how hard I try to make friends no one seems interested in being my friend. I try to be friendly, funny, I try to relating to them and all of the other things that a person might do to make friends. I wear nice clothes when I go out, not just throwing on whatever old shirt I find. Usually a button down and jeans. I also shower a few times a day and use deodorant and cologne, so it can't be my BO.
Im starting to think, what is wrong with me? If I have tried talking with a lot of people and no one seems interested in being my friend. If everyone I meet doesn't want to be my friend then there is something obviously wrong with me, because I am the thing that is the same in all of these encounters.
I've honest just given up. I don't know what else I can do. I hate seeing all of these social butterflies making friends so easily. I don't really hate them, I just wish that I had the same charisma, and that people wanted to be my friend and actively pursed me like they do those people. I've been told that Im charismatic and funny and all of those things, I just dont see it. I see myself as really awkward and nervous around people.Even when I don't think negatively and try to think positively I just revert to being nervous.
