In the past I always thought that suicide is meaningless. Now I am having second thoughts. Maybe copes are meaningless and suicide is the answer. Copes do nothing for me any more.
Suicide will be my first independent decision in life. In a sense, it is liberation.
I’ve never accomplished anything meaningful. So, it may be my first and last achievement as well.
I will not suffer from poor health beyond my thirty. I will not be worried about clown world we live in, about search for shitty minimal wage job, about my stupid hobbies, about my wasted life.
My Mom has never been worried about what I want in life. Maybe in fact she will not be concerned about my death more than about the death of any stray cats that she feeds.
Today I bought a notepad. On the way home I met dying frog. The poor guy covered in blood crawled over the asphalt to safety. I carried it to the grass. Stupid deed. The frog dies in agony anyway. It might have been more human to kill it or leave it in place so that the passing car would finish the job. If I decide to act humanely on my next birthday, the notebook will become my suicide note. I'll start taking notes today.
I still have a lot to think about. Perhaps I should sort my items up. Perhaps I should gift some of my items to people I know. I also should close the accounts and put my body in shape.
What do you think about it? What are the positive and negative sides to suicide?
Suicide will be my first independent decision in life. In a sense, it is liberation.
I’ve never accomplished anything meaningful. So, it may be my first and last achievement as well.
I will not suffer from poor health beyond my thirty. I will not be worried about clown world we live in, about search for shitty minimal wage job, about my stupid hobbies, about my wasted life.
My Mom has never been worried about what I want in life. Maybe in fact she will not be concerned about my death more than about the death of any stray cats that she feeds.
Today I bought a notepad. On the way home I met dying frog. The poor guy covered in blood crawled over the asphalt to safety. I carried it to the grass. Stupid deed. The frog dies in agony anyway. It might have been more human to kill it or leave it in place so that the passing car would finish the job. If I decide to act humanely on my next birthday, the notebook will become my suicide note. I'll start taking notes today.
I still have a lot to think about. Perhaps I should sort my items up. Perhaps I should gift some of my items to people I know. I also should close the accounts and put my body in shape.
What do you think about it? What are the positive and negative sides to suicide?
