I don't post here much bc I'm very low energy, nowhere else to post it bc I have no life either and I only feel home here
But again I begged some guy from my high school to go to this festival, we had an OK time but every time I looked at a girl and met eye contact they looked away after a second with a negative facial expression... Jesus, being ugly is like playing free mode while everyone else is playing premium, fuck this garbage
So I went home on my bike but I was pretty drunk, I took out my phone to take a look at Google Maps but I fucking fell, my elbow bled a shit load but my emotional pain was 100x worse from having a shitty night and realizing again what my life situation was. So I walked with my now fucked up bike in my hands to my village in some obscure place while screaming to myself how totally trash this life is. A car passed every 5 minutes so I had to force myself to stay quiet and hide my tears (yep I cried I'm a little bitch).
Eventually some other people from the festival came by with bikes, and they saw me acting retarded and felt pity so I went with them to get home (same village & neighbouring village mostly). Reminded me of elementary school when the same type of pity was expressed towards me, it made me feel worse actually
So when I got home I cleaned my wounds and cried some more (yea I know), and I checked my phone; oh wait, the WiFi and 4G adapters are FUCKED now.
Why is life like this? I am still too pussy to kill myself (what does it even take??? my life is hell and I still cannot do it, WTF???)
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Elbow's still bleeding, whatever
More importantly: I have 2 Samsung Galaxy J5s from 2016 I think, where I tried to swap SIM cards but once I took them out (from both) I couldn't put any card in any phone, how tf does this work?
But again I begged some guy from my high school to go to this festival, we had an OK time but every time I looked at a girl and met eye contact they looked away after a second with a negative facial expression... Jesus, being ugly is like playing free mode while everyone else is playing premium, fuck this garbage
So I went home on my bike but I was pretty drunk, I took out my phone to take a look at Google Maps but I fucking fell, my elbow bled a shit load but my emotional pain was 100x worse from having a shitty night and realizing again what my life situation was. So I walked with my now fucked up bike in my hands to my village in some obscure place while screaming to myself how totally trash this life is. A car passed every 5 minutes so I had to force myself to stay quiet and hide my tears (yep I cried I'm a little bitch).
Eventually some other people from the festival came by with bikes, and they saw me acting retarded and felt pity so I went with them to get home (same village & neighbouring village mostly). Reminded me of elementary school when the same type of pity was expressed towards me, it made me feel worse actually
So when I got home I cleaned my wounds and cried some more (yea I know), and I checked my phone; oh wait, the WiFi and 4G adapters are FUCKED now.
Why is life like this? I am still too pussy to kill myself (what does it even take??? my life is hell and I still cannot do it, WTF???)
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Elbow's still bleeding, whatever
More importantly: I have 2 Samsung Galaxy J5s from 2016 I think, where I tried to swap SIM cards but once I took them out (from both) I couldn't put any card in any phone, how tf does this work?
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