I don't care about anything anymore. I no longer have a desire for intimacy with a woman. My brain knows that any desire goes away with masturbation, so I don't care. What's the point in paying for a prostitute, for example, when you can just masturbate and be done with it? Everything is so pointless. Anything I look forward to is gone within seconds and, within weeks, forgotten almost completely.
Every time a day ends, it's as if that day has died and with it, any fond memories you might have of it. All the good times I had in the past are fading out of my mind into nonexistence to be permanently forgotten.
Life is so fast and so repetitive. It's all chemical releases and predictable behavior. The only sensation that truly remains resilient in my mind is anger. Anger and hate have consumed everything else in terms of how I view people.
Every time a day ends, it's as if that day has died and with it, any fond memories you might have of it. All the good times I had in the past are fading out of my mind into nonexistence to be permanently forgotten.
Life is so fast and so repetitive. It's all chemical releases and predictable behavior. The only sensation that truly remains resilient in my mind is anger. Anger and hate have consumed everything else in terms of how I view people.
