Venting Loneliness is slowly killing me

[ColdPillow]

I go to college four days a week. Every day I sit alone and don't talk with anybody.

Then I go home, do my homework, and rot in bed. The cycle repeats.

On my three days off from school I rot in bed and frequently talk in the incel discord server where I consider that healthy social interaction. All I want are some quality friends irl but everybody rejects me and cuts connection with me after a week because of my awkward energy.

I am at the point of mental breakdown. I don't think I will ever kill myself unless something really bad was to happen, but I feel like emotionally I have already killed myself. I feel like I'll always be living a mediocre life with mediocre experiences and hold an uninteresting job just so I can serve society while being crushed by it simultaneously.

The only person I know in this life is my mother. I don't know anybody else. It is so fucking miserable every day and I can't even cope with crying anymore.

 

[Deleted member 3291]

same what country you go to uni

 

[Deleted member 265]

do u do nofap? i felt this heavy on like 30days nofap streaks, u dont feel lonely if u fap though

 

[ColdPillow]

same what country you go to uni

Colorado

do u do nofap? i felt this heavy on like 30days nofap streaks, u dont feel lonely if u fap though

I fapped yesterday. Might as well do it again because it made me feel better last time

 

[PM_ME_STRIPPERS]

suprisingly for a subhuman like myself i do have a small number of friends, but after a few years they all got boring and have gfs so im pretty much all alone now, no friends left.

 

[Hunter]

do u do nofap? i felt this heavy on like 30days nofap streaks, u dont feel lonely if u fap though

its called flatline

 

[Brahcel]

Most people do not have real friends. Join a gym or club

 

[God'sGreatestRegret]

Go to church. The folk there are usually friendly.