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- Nov 8, 2017
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It's so hard, brothers.
Sitting and staring at this computer screen makes me forget who I even am.
I am a broken man. I think you can tell when I try to smile, it's limited from what it could be. The bags under my eyes. I'm only nineteen but my hair is beginning to gray.
This is a surreal, but real amount of stress and suffering. How can this Dunya continue to eat at me yet i do my best to go down this righteous path.
Alhamdulillah I have not touched myself for a long time. He is pleased with my resolve.
I cannot bear the planet and not having any love or supportive family. It's the weight of a mountain on my shoulders and my spine is cracking is how it feels.
I don't do any straining physical activities but my body is physically aching at all times. My bones crack so often. Is this physical deficiency a legitimate result of stress?
Thing is, I don't think this is even the most stress. How about when I finish college and I end up being somehow unemployable because of my felony record.
I'm on probation for the next few years. One minor slip up and I go to prison. I can't handle this falsehood and imprisonment.
I can't afford therapy, but what do you guys think I can legitimately improve in life?
Sitting and staring at this computer screen makes me forget who I even am.
I am a broken man. I think you can tell when I try to smile, it's limited from what it could be. The bags under my eyes. I'm only nineteen but my hair is beginning to gray.
This is a surreal, but real amount of stress and suffering. How can this Dunya continue to eat at me yet i do my best to go down this righteous path.
Alhamdulillah I have not touched myself for a long time. He is pleased with my resolve.
I cannot bear the planet and not having any love or supportive family. It's the weight of a mountain on my shoulders and my spine is cracking is how it feels.
I don't do any straining physical activities but my body is physically aching at all times. My bones crack so often. Is this physical deficiency a legitimate result of stress?
Thing is, I don't think this is even the most stress. How about when I finish college and I end up being somehow unemployable because of my felony record.
I'm on probation for the next few years. One minor slip up and I go to prison. I can't handle this falsehood and imprisonment.
I can't afford therapy, but what do you guys think I can legitimately improve in life?