LDAR Life as an incel feels plotless

[Mainländer]

For instance, consider this picture from a beautiful house near the beach in a picturesque Brazilian neighborhood.

When I look at it, I imagine various scenarios; me being a teenager, with my parents in it, the girl I like being my neighbor for a while because her family also has a beach house nearby; me and my friends planning to go out with her and hers, me trying to think of a way to get her and a place to sneak into with her so that we can be alone, etc.

There's a plot, a purpose, a reward, beautiful memories waiting to be built. Like an anime, like a story.

I could at least have a gf and spend a night there or whatever.

But now, realistically speaking: I could go there. I'd go all alone or with a friend or whatever, walk around a bit, maybe even bathe in the sea and then come back. But it feels random, purposeless, plotless, bland. At best I could record a vlog or something and talk about how it's over for the thousandth time.

I'm not a fan of ER but he did say something I like:

"As I've said many times, a beautiful environment can be the darkest hell if you have to experience it all alone, especially while having to watch other men walking around with their girlfriends. I wish girls were attracted to me."

Today is a beautiful sunny day in Brazil. But, like I wrote in my LDAR Bossa song, there's no reason whatsoever to go outside.

 

[Mainländer]

honestly thats y i dont go outside im reminded of my crippleing lonleyness being inside the internet 24/7 feels a lot more comfy

I like going outside but even apart from seeing things that make me frustrated and jealous, it just feels like I'm doing it for no reason.

Sometimes I walk aimlessly, but then I quickly get tired of it and then have to come back home.

As an incel, it feels like days, weeks, months, years go by and no memories are built.

For instance, 2016 or something. I don't remember anything from that year. What happened? I don't remember.

 

[PrestonYnot-]

Inject T unironically. You'll feel less emotional and sentimental about this kinda stuff

 

[Mainländer]

Inject T unironically. You'll feel less emotional and sentimental about these things

I am confirmedly high T, tested it twice. If I was low T I'd probably be slitting my wrists while I listen to Linkin Park in the bathroom in moments like this.

 

[PrestonYnot-]

I am confirmedly high T, tested it twice. If I was low T I'd probably be slitting my wrists while I listen to Linkin Park in the bathroom in moments like this.

I guess nothing can make up for teen love. The jbpill is indeed brutal.

 

[Mainländer]

I guess nothing can make up for teen love. The jbpill is indeed brutal.

I totally get why the Japanese obsess over high school and like half of anime is based around HS students. Life after it feels tasteless. Especially if you have to be a robot and work 10 hours a day in some uninteresting bullshit, but even without having to do it.

I feel like things are a waste. There are cool things that could be done but they aren't being done nowhere near ideal levels.

 

[PrestonYnot-]

I totally get why the Japanese obsess over high school and like half of anime is based around HS students. Life after it feels tasteless. Especially if you have to be a robot and work 10 hours a day in some uninteresting bullshit, but even without having to do it.

I feel like things are a waste. There are cool things that could be done but they aren't being done nowhere near ideal levels.

How old are u?

 

[Mainländer]

I actually had an opportunity to have the scenario described in OP when I was a teen. But this is how it turned out:

I was on a trip with a friend from school and his brother, in a house they have in a beach spot. I fell in love with their cousin, who was like 12 or 13. I was 16 (probably pedo according to IT but who cares). My friend was about my age and his younger brother was 13.

His younger brother told her I liked her in front of everybody and she said something like "Good grief, I'd never date him!". He himself proceeded to start dating her on that very trip.

We went to some retro party or something (the place was kinda small so the options of places to go out at night were limited) and my friend's younger brother was there kissing and groping with my onitis. My friend also met with his girlfriend. A even younger kid, who was like 10, started to made fun of me for being the only kissless virgin person around. Even that kid mogged me. I felt down as fuck tbh.

On the same night, or some nights after, I dpon't remember, but still on the trip, his brother started listing the girls he had already kissed, something like 15, and my friend also said his score, something like 10, and I was kissless.

Bonus: after it, a blonde beautiful friend of that girl who rejected me came around and she ended up with his neighbor, who was a high tier normie with light eyes.

 

[Cristo]

I like going outside but even apart from seeing things that make me frustrated and jealous, it just feels like I'm doing it for no reason.

Sometimes I walk aimlessly, but then I quickly get tired of it and then have to come back home.

As an incel, it feels like days, weeks, months, years go by and no memories are built.

For instance, 2016 or something. I don't remember anything from that year. What happened? I don't remember.

This is brutal and happens with memories from junior high and such. I dont remember shit because I made no emotional connection with them.

 

[Mainländer]

How old are u?

As old as Jesus when He died.

 

[AlexanderTheGreat11]

I totally get why the Japanese obsess over high school and like half of anime is based around HS students. Life after it feels tasteless. Especially if you have to be a robot and work 10 hours a day in some uninteresting bullshit, but even without having to do it.

I feel like things are a waste. There are cool things that could be done but they aren't being done nowhere near ideal levels.

Tbh , you just can't recover

 

[Linesnap99]

exactly man. you read my mind. there is no point in life without a girl with whom one can create and share moments. It is the experience and moments that is most precious.

 

[GluePrittCel]

For instance, consider this picture from a beautiful house near the beach in a picturesque Brazilian neighborhood.

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When I look at it, I imagine various scenarios; me being a teenager, with my parents in it, the girl I like being my neighbor for a while because her family also has a beach house nearby; me and my friends planning to go out with her and hers, me trying to think of a way to get her and a place to sneak into with her so that we can be alone, etc.

There's a plot, a purpose, a reward, beautiful memories waiting to be built. Like an anime, like a story.

I could at least have a gf and spend a night there or whatever.

But now, realistically speaking: I could go there. I'd go all alone or with a friend or whatever, walk around a bit, maybe even bathe in the sea and then come back. But it feels random, purposeless, plotless, bland. At best I could record a vlog or something and talk about how it's over for the thousandth time.

I'm not a fan of ER but he did say something I like:

"As I've said many times, a beautiful environment can be the darkest hell if you have to experience it all alone, especially while having to watch other men walking around with their girlfriends. I wish girls were attracted to me."

Today is a beautiful sunny day in Brazil. But, like I wrote in my LDAR Bossa song, there's no reason whatsoever to go outside.

So so. I’d say that is mainly for bluepilled incels that are still waiting for a reward. I have been an incel my entire life and my life wasn’t plotless. It became plotless when I was almost 20 because I understoood that not even the redpill or “the game” could give me “free sex” or a romantic relationship. However, my life has been plotless since I’m 20. No rewards for the long run because I know that they aren’t there. Just whoremaxxing and that’s it. And yes, it hurts to see teenage couples or couples younger than you outside.