LDAR LDARing out of control

[Deleted member 28708]

As the title says, I losing all of my control, I literally don't want to do anything, even simple things requires so much mental energy, I'm forcing myself for write this.
I guess I LDAR so much that my brain rotted beyond repair, I can sleep all day long, I try to do some productive things but, they are like torture at some point.

I don't know how to explain this, I want to be productive, but same time, I just want to do nothing all day. Maybe because I don't see an reason to self improvement after years of loneliness and isolation. I think this is what happens when you grew up with an computer instead of friends.

@anon1822 @Gymcelled @TheNEET what do you guys think?

 

[your personality]

I want to be productive, but same time, I just want to do nothing all day.

 

[Copexodius Maximus]

There's no point of working hard if no one loves you.

 

[zangano1]

Ive rotted all day

 

[Deleted member 7448]

I can't give any advice cause I've been stuck in this hell for so many years, and yet I'm still even lazier than you cause I don't even want to do productive stuff, I just want to be comfy and happy, except nothing makes me feel happy. I just want something to make the rotting more enjoyable, some activity that I can do while rotting, instead of browsing and watching random shit endlessly.

Anyway, all I can tell you is that I hope you can stop. FORCE yourself to be uncomfortable if that's what it takes. Force yourself to do anything at all. If it's not too late of course, if you're as far gone as me then I'm sorry for that, but if you can then force yourself to suffer by spending energy and actually going out and doing things, anything.

 

[Pengwin]

Ive rotted all day

All week.

 

[zangano1]

All week.

All year

 

[Gymcelled]

Everything feels like a chore or a punishment when you don't have a reason to live.

I still manage to be productive but I feel like i would do even more or at least do it with much more enthusiasm if i had a reason to live

 

[Deleted member 13785]

It becomes a chore in itself to take care of yourself.

I don't know how to explain this, I want to be productive, but same time, I just want to do nothing all day. Maybe because I don't see an reason to self improvement after years of loneliness and isolation. I think this is what happens when you grew up with an computer instead of friends.

This is exactly how I feel too. I could do X, Y and Z but at the end of the day, no one is going to give a shit, it's not going to make anyone care about me. We have fallen so deep into the pit it feels impossible to get out of. I don't think it's much different than overweight people who can't control themselves and keep eating. This is all I know, being alone is all I've ever been, and it feels like it will always be that way and there's no point in trying to fix it.

 

[Deleted member 29704]

Anyway, all I can tell you is that I hope you can stop. FORCE yourself to be uncomfortable if that's what it takes. Force yourself to do anything at all. If it's not too late of course, if you're as far gone as me then I'm sorry for that, but if you can then force yourself to suffer by spending energy and actually going out and doing things, anything.

What things can you do? other than ldar

 

[Deleted member 7448]

What things can you do? other than ldar

I'm not being self-deprecating but honestly nothing comes to mind.

 

[Neggr]

There's no point of working hard if no one loves you.

 

[Deleted member 24016]

Same man i've been LDARing harder and harder.

 

[ChronicPaincel]

Same man i've been LDARing harder and harder.

 

[curryboy420]

Man I have no energy left, its even a legal problem for me to ldar as they want me to do community service but I just can't go on. I can't see how prison is that bad, just lay on your bed and don't bother anyone and it should be easy. I am so far gone I wake up at 7 or 8 pm in the evening whereas normal people do the opposite lol.

 

[Ellviss]

There's no point of working hard if no one loves you.

 

[GeneticDysfunction]

There's no point of working hard if no one loves you.

 

[DisgustingSlob]

I just want something to make the rotting more enjoyable, some activity that I can do while rotting, instead of browsing and watching random shit endlessly.

Anyway, all I can tell you is that I hope you can stop. FORCE yourself to be uncomfortable if that's what it takes. Force yourself to do anything at all. If it's not too late of course, if you're as far gone as me then I'm sorry for that, but if you can then force yourself to suffer by spending energy and actually going out and doing things, anything.

Definitely agree. Isn't rotting defined as browsing and watching random shit endlessly?

I always feel like a total piece of shit when I'm unproductive for the day. Such an easy cycle to get into. My technique for avoiding this is recording my rotting activities in a 'sin list.' Then I look at worthless shit for a few minutes rather than intermittently all day.

 

[Deleted member 4760]

during quarantine, there were some days id go to sleep at 3-4am, wake up at 5pm, eat, watch yt then repeat.

Never wanna be in the deadly cycle again.

 

[Over_this_Life]

There's no point of working hard if no one loves you.

The coming-home-to-an-empty-apartment-after-working-8-hours pill is very real and slaughtered me back when I actually had a job

 

[Lowdickenergycel]

There's no point of working hard if no one loves you.

 

[BlackPill Scholar]

Same man i've been LDARing harder and harder.

 

[Copexodius Maximus]

The coming-home-to-an-empty-apartment-after-working-8-hours pill is very real and slaughtered me back when I actually had a job

That's why I wont move out of my parents house

 

[LOLI BREEDING]

try coffee boyo it helps if you want to sleep during the day

I want to be productive, but same time, I just want to do nothing all day