black_depresso
You won't change reality, friend
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- Jun 13, 2019
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I dont know about you guys but lack of female touch is absolutely destroying my emotional state and optimism for everything
I feel like there are ropes tied around me constricting my breathing and my spirit and consciousness, and "dulling out" every waking moment of life. Like a fire slowly running out of fuel, everything is just grayer, darker, softer, closer and closer to being extinguished. I am being given no fuel. No woman wants to touch me, and I can no longer sustain the fire for a colourful, vibrant life. I feel like im on my last glowing embers and can barely tolerate daily existence anymore, and cannot escape constant reminders of beauty and what lives beautiful people live, and what I am never going to get. I'm so close to actively seeking out a gun and shooting myself in the temple. Im so fucking close to doing it.
I feel like there are ropes tied around me constricting my breathing and my spirit and consciousness, and "dulling out" every waking moment of life. Like a fire slowly running out of fuel, everything is just grayer, darker, softer, closer and closer to being extinguished. I am being given no fuel. No woman wants to touch me, and I can no longer sustain the fire for a colourful, vibrant life. I feel like im on my last glowing embers and can barely tolerate daily existence anymore, and cannot escape constant reminders of beauty and what lives beautiful people live, and what I am never going to get. I'm so close to actively seeking out a gun and shooting myself in the temple. Im so fucking close to doing it.