LDAR Just wanted to share some dream I had

[Xumi]

Lately I returned to my self-destructive behaviour more than ever. I just kept binge drinking & drugs. Woke up with one of the worst hangovers & depression, feelings of emotional pain in the chest & nauseous. I kept falling in and out of vivid dreams (very rare of me), and I recorded them upon waking up. I'm too emberassed to share most of them (too personal), but I'll share one of the scenes:

I dreamt about repteadly going downstairs and upstairs, drinking more and more alcohol, losing coordinations, and keep drinking, eventually noticed somebody opening the door and i feared getting caught drunk so I rushed upstairs. At the time, my level of coordination was so low, I kept moving in such slow mode, until I fell to the ground and lost my vision, and all senses. Felt like a shell; a zombie. I panicked in that state and woke up.

I'd keep drinking in a heartbeat, but I hate leaving my home (last time 1-2 months ago). Hopefully tomorrow I would go out and buy in bulk. It's all or nothing for me.

 

[Dionysus]

I dreamt about repteadly going downstairs and upstairs, drinking more and more alcohol, losing coordinations, and keep drinking, eventually noticed somebody opening the door and i feared getting caught drunk so I rushed upstairs.

perhaps you are hiding something irl?

I dreamt about repteadly going downstairs and upstairs, drinking more and more alcohol, losing coordinations, and keep drinking, eventually noticed somebody opening the door and i feared getting caught drunk so I rushed upstairs. At the time, my level of coordination was so low, I kept moving in such slow mode, until I fell to the ground and lost my vision, and all senses. Felt like a shell; a zombie. I panicked in that state and woke up.

I had similar experiences as well i was being chased by a monster upstairs but i lost my energy and i fell to the ground and couldn't get up

 

[Xumi]

perhaps you are hiding something irl?

My parents had inspected me multiple times before. In one recent occurance, I just left my room's door, went downstairs, then noticed somebody opening the house's room, so I quickly reverted to my room. It was my dad and he and my mom raided my room. I can barely remember what has happened, I think they couldn't find the vodka bottle, and just took some piss bottle I had left.