fuck growing up, i dont want to deal with all this stupid shit, feeling like a worthless subhuman all the time- being too ugly for foids, to ugly for even a couple of friends.I just want to go back to happily playinjg a dumb block game talking to some kids on skype not worrying about all the shit going on in the world.
the blackpill is such a double edged sword and i feel like learning it saved me from a lifetime of disappointment and perplexity, but killed my motivation and will to live. I cant think about anything except killing myself anymore, only good memories i have are from video games, how sad is that.
My mom treats me like the failure i am, i dont have anyoine to talk to everyone i used to talk to moved on with their lives, and here i am waiting at the starting line hoping for them to turn around and come back and help me. but i am alone, left behind by the world, an orphan of society.
im so despressed and miserable my autism is getting worse every day and i the amount of money i spend on weed is getting pretty ridiculous because its the only thing that helps me feel somewhat okay.
