Life is miserable and hard in many ways, and as incels even more so.
But what makes life even more unbearable is having health problems. To any period of boredom, labor and mental suffering, add physical pain or nausea in the mix. It becomes much worse.
I've screwed myself by being an alcoholic for 2 years. That might not sound like much, but I overdid it by a lot. I drank 1 liter of vodka (or any hard liquor) a day. On some occasions even 2 a day, for nearly 2 years. One time I woke up in the hospital, didn't remember how I got there. Got out (after pulling out a catheter) asap, the same day, and then went directly to the store to buy a bottle of rum. Another time I drank 2 liters of vodka and drank 19 coffeine pills, though I vomited them soon after. I don't remember if it was a suicide attempt, cause I had been drinking heavily for weeks.
Anyway, now I have a heart problems (maybe had a heart attack, it's possible, don't remember). I have pancreas problems, now eating the wrong things can make me nauseous for the entire day. I'm fat and I can't even exercise properly cause my heart rate goes way up and I start getting sick. Even my mind isn't as sharp as it used to be.
Just be healthy.
Edit: Ohh, some other goodies. I woke in a hospital yet another time, without knowing how (still don't). It was even in another town (about 30 kilometers from where I lived). I woke up, and then got in an argument with the woman doctor. Well, I tried to run away from the hospital as soon as possible (I'm poor, didn't want to pay much money, and this wasn't in my home country). Well, 2 male nurses or was it guards, I don't remember, stopped me. Pinned me to the ground. My broken front teeth that were repaired by the dentist shattered again. They called the police, I spent the rest of the night in a cell (drunk tank maybe). They let me go soon after. Ohh, did I mention I my pants were wet with piss when I woke up in the hospital. Though they undressed me when I was in bed.
And also so much vomiting kinda ruined my teeth, and the bad diet (basically only alcohol and canned stuff). Not only the 2 front ones I broke (still don't remember how, but I can guess).
But what makes life even more unbearable is having health problems. To any period of boredom, labor and mental suffering, add physical pain or nausea in the mix. It becomes much worse.
I've screwed myself by being an alcoholic for 2 years. That might not sound like much, but I overdid it by a lot. I drank 1 liter of vodka (or any hard liquor) a day. On some occasions even 2 a day, for nearly 2 years. One time I woke up in the hospital, didn't remember how I got there. Got out (after pulling out a catheter) asap, the same day, and then went directly to the store to buy a bottle of rum. Another time I drank 2 liters of vodka and drank 19 coffeine pills, though I vomited them soon after. I don't remember if it was a suicide attempt, cause I had been drinking heavily for weeks.
Anyway, now I have a heart problems (maybe had a heart attack, it's possible, don't remember). I have pancreas problems, now eating the wrong things can make me nauseous for the entire day. I'm fat and I can't even exercise properly cause my heart rate goes way up and I start getting sick. Even my mind isn't as sharp as it used to be.
Just be healthy.
Edit: Ohh, some other goodies. I woke in a hospital yet another time, without knowing how (still don't). It was even in another town (about 30 kilometers from where I lived). I woke up, and then got in an argument with the woman doctor. Well, I tried to run away from the hospital as soon as possible (I'm poor, didn't want to pay much money, and this wasn't in my home country). Well, 2 male nurses or was it guards, I don't remember, stopped me. Pinned me to the ground. My broken front teeth that were repaired by the dentist shattered again. They called the police, I spent the rest of the night in a cell (drunk tank maybe). They let me go soon after. Ohh, did I mention I my pants were wet with piss when I woke up in the hospital. Though they undressed me when I was in bed.
And also so much vomiting kinda ruined my teeth, and the bad diet (basically only alcohol and canned stuff). Not only the 2 front ones I broke (still don't remember how, but I can guess).
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