
VλREN
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It’s torture honestly
Most insane part is that I relapsed on no fap yesterday and I ended up jerking off a bunch of times two days ago. But now I feel even more horny now, I don’t know why.
Am literally home right now and I can’t think of anything but sex, like it feels like am in freaking high school again.
I don’t have blue balls, but they feel so weird right now.
Jerking off isn’t going to work anymore, am 22 I need to have sexual intercourse, I need to hug a girl form behind, I need to cuddle with a girl at 3AM in bed while it rains, I need to put my face against a girls face and look into her eyes.
I never even kissed or hugged a girl. The last time I’ve even held hands with a girl was ten years ago during PE when they forced everyone to do ballroom dancing. I didn’t like it because I was just staring to go through puberty but looking back I kinda miss it
I don’t know why but I feel this super intense paranoia when I talk about this stuff, it’s difficult to explain. Almost like my brain is telling me that am not man enough to have a mate. Like that I wouldn’t have what it takes to protect her or something, take for example when I fantasize about cuddling with a girl I get flooded with thoughts about getting into a car crash or a fight or something bad happening to me. I don’t know why this happens. I’ll write a thread about it later tonight
Anyway am going for my late evening walk so I’ll be AFK for an hour or something
Most insane part is that I relapsed on no fap yesterday and I ended up jerking off a bunch of times two days ago. But now I feel even more horny now, I don’t know why.
Am literally home right now and I can’t think of anything but sex, like it feels like am in freaking high school again.
I don’t have blue balls, but they feel so weird right now.
Jerking off isn’t going to work anymore, am 22 I need to have sexual intercourse, I need to hug a girl form behind, I need to cuddle with a girl at 3AM in bed while it rains, I need to put my face against a girls face and look into her eyes.
I never even kissed or hugged a girl. The last time I’ve even held hands with a girl was ten years ago during PE when they forced everyone to do ballroom dancing. I didn’t like it because I was just staring to go through puberty but looking back I kinda miss it
I don’t know why but I feel this super intense paranoia when I talk about this stuff, it’s difficult to explain. Almost like my brain is telling me that am not man enough to have a mate. Like that I wouldn’t have what it takes to protect her or something, take for example when I fantasize about cuddling with a girl I get flooded with thoughts about getting into a car crash or a fight or something bad happening to me. I don’t know why this happens. I’ll write a thread about it later tonight
Anyway am going for my late evening walk so I’ll be AFK for an hour or something