Void
LosER
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- Joined
- Nov 14, 2017
- Posts
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Holy shit, after 139/200 rejections and more non-replies, I managed to get an office job even though it only is a temp position.
I'm going to try my best at this place and save up for a place to stay after college.
I hope I don't fuck this up, this is my first serious job beside working retail and fast food. Scared af that my schizo gonna mess with me, they can fire me at anytime and if they do i'm gonna lose my fucking shit.
Phase 2 is almost 50% complete, the voices and delusions are getting better but if I lose this job it's going to probably be worst than ever. Please god I don't want to do what they telling me to do, make this work please those reflections haunting me like scouring through my minds, they said they'd give me power but what if they done this to break me down so that I fall further into the blacked well, like the tower that collapses upon the weight of man.
I'm going to try my best at this place and save up for a place to stay after college.
I hope I don't fuck this up, this is my first serious job beside working retail and fast food. Scared af that my schizo gonna mess with me, they can fire me at anytime and if they do i'm gonna lose my fucking shit.
Phase 2 is almost 50% complete, the voices and delusions are getting better but if I lose this job it's going to probably be worst than ever. Please god I don't want to do what they telling me to do, make this work please those reflections haunting me like scouring through my minds, they said they'd give me power but what if they done this to break me down so that I fall further into the blacked well, like the tower that collapses upon the weight of man.