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I learned about the blackpill years ago, around 2017, but I still had hope that I could at least become a normie tier male and be apart of society. I only recently started to realize that my life was ALREADY over, what I didn't want to accept is that I had no chance. I always told my- self that everything bad happening to me is my fault and that there is a way out of hell.
The most excruciating pain for me was seeing how people truly live their lives. I only lived life as an outcast and loner, I had no idea people were living life the best they could. People had reasons to live, had fun, loved each-other, socialized and everything I could've wished for. I thought I could have a chance to turn my life around, improve myself and make a single friend. All my efforts were futile by the end, everyone told me to fuck off, ignored me, or simply didn't care.
The revelation that society has rejected and abandoned me was the final turning point for me. Normies didn't have to overcome a struggle, they were simply born into their cushy lives and accepted. I wasn't rejected because I was evil, mean or disgusting, I was rejected because my life was OVER before it began. I was a genetic dead end, a fatherless failure and born into a shithole.
The only thing that stops me from going over the edge and roping is the fear of hell and making my family sad.
The most excruciating pain for me was seeing how people truly live their lives. I only lived life as an outcast and loner, I had no idea people were living life the best they could. People had reasons to live, had fun, loved each-other, socialized and everything I could've wished for. I thought I could have a chance to turn my life around, improve myself and make a single friend. All my efforts were futile by the end, everyone told me to fuck off, ignored me, or simply didn't care.
The revelation that society has rejected and abandoned me was the final turning point for me. Normies didn't have to overcome a struggle, they were simply born into their cushy lives and accepted. I wasn't rejected because I was evil, mean or disgusting, I was rejected because my life was OVER before it began. I was a genetic dead end, a fatherless failure and born into a shithole.
The only thing that stops me from going over the edge and roping is the fear of hell and making my family sad.