It's getting hard to hide the fact that I don't give a fuck anymore

[Deleted member 7448]

I pretty much only interact with people at work, so I try to be somewhat nice. I'm also a rather anxious person, so I try to be nice in general so it doesn't bite me in the ass in the future.

But it's getting hard to keep doing it. Lately people even commented on how I seem angry or too quiet and shit. Well, that's what usually happens when I drop my guard and just am who I am. But the amount of time that I am able to pretend is getting shorter and shorter.

I wish I was self-employed or something. Better yet, living off the land in the fucking woods or something. The would could go fuck itself for all I care.

 

[Darth Cialis]

Happened to me too one week that I was especially upset and sad about my condition, I believe I radiated my mental status and of course people could easily pick it up. One coworker even said to me that I am young and if I don't like the job I should change it, but of course the problem was inceldom not the job and I can't change that.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Happened to me too one week that I was especially upset and sad about my condition, I believe I radiated my mental status and of course people could easily pick it up. One coworker even said to me that I am young and if I don't like the job I should change it, but of course the problem was inceldom not the job and I can't change that.

Every job sucks ass. My problem isn't really inceldom, that's just the icing on the shitcake, my problem is having to work shit jobs, and they're all shit, for shit money, with shit people for shitty long hours and having to pay shitbills that take pretty much all of my shitty money.

 

[OmniVoid]

Fucking same

 

[Darth Cialis]

Every job sucks ass. My problem isn't really inceldom, that's just the icing on the shitcake, my problem is having to work shit jobs, and they're all shit, for shit money, with shit people for shitty long hours and having to pay shitbills that take pretty much all of my shitty money.

I'm sorry to hear that, I believe that in your place I'd feel the same way.

 

[TheReaper]

it sucks but often pretend to have a positive attitude is part of the job.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

you need to be careful around normies, some are nice but some will basically create a weird kind of 'chaos' where it's very easy for you to make a fool of yourself or give away how little experience you have with women and friendship, you don't really need to warm up to the latter kind too much because they do that shit on purpose and love it

 

[Deleted member 7448]

you need to be careful around normies, some are nice but some will basically create a weird kind of 'chaos' where it's very easy for you to make a fool of yourself or give away how little experience you have with women and friendship, you don't really need to warm up to the latter kind too much because they do that shit on purpose and love it

You're right, and I stupidly became a victim of this many times, even recently. I guess I've been isolated for so long that when I got a chance to make conversation or say something I got too into it. Made a fool of myself many times. Fucking hate those kinds of people.

 

[virgin4life]

Happened to me too one week that I was especially upset and sad about my condition, I believe I radiated my mental status and of course people could easily pick it up. One coworker even said to me that I am young and if I don't like the job I should change it, but of course the problem was inceldom not the job and I can't change that.

"Change the job if you don't like it" is such a fucking load of crap advice. Nobody likes his job. If you liked what you were doing you wouldn't get paid for it. A job is something you do because you need and depend on the fucking money.

 

[Darth Cialis]

"Change the job if you don't like it" is such a fucking load of crap advice. Nobody likes his job. If you liked what you were doing you wouldn't get paid for it. A job is something you do because you need and depend on the fucking money.

They pay you to do the job, not to be distressed by it. It's not that if you like doing what you do they will stop paying you.

 

[virgin4life]

They pay you to do the job, not to be distressed by it. It's not that if you like doing what you do they will stop paying you.

I hate every second of doing anything other than LDARing in front of my PC.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

I hate every second of doing anything other than LDARing in front of my PC.

100% agree man. Literally, hate it since I was a child. All I've ever done was LDAR in front of my PC when not forced to go to school or work.

 

[Darth Cialis]

I hate every second of doing anything other than LDARing in front of my PC.

I hate every second of doing anything other than being cared for by a cute girl.

 

[virgin4life]

100% agree man. Literally, hate it since I was a child. All I've ever done was LDAR in front of my PC when not forced to go to school or work.

Yeah man there is nothing for us to achieve. No rewards to reap. Real life is like a really really repetitive boring game that never ends but just keeps going in a loop until you die of some fucked up disease.

 

[Michael15651]

Time to ElliotAldersonmax.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Yeah man there is nothing for us to achieve. No rewards to reap. Real life is like a really really repetitive boring game that never ends but just keeps going in a loop until you die of some fucked up disease.

Exactly. But the worst part is that I've become tired of LDARing too. I mean, it's the only thing in the world that I don't absolutely hate doing, but it's not enough, I'm bored of the activities I do while LDARing. Nothing else is interesting or rewarding though.

 

[virgin4life]

Exactly. But the worst part is that I've become tired of LDARing too. I mean, it's the only thing in the world I want to that I don't absolutely hate doing, but it's not enough, I'm bored of the activities I do while LDARing. Nothing else is interesting or rewarding though.

Yeah I am 37. Of course LDARing doesn't work for me anymore. It is like some guy that has started taking heroine because he realizes life won't go anywhere for him. It will take him to great heights but after 20 years he will not feel much of it anymore. He will still take the drug just to avoid feeling like complete shit and just because anything else (aka living a normal life) is even worse but he won't be enjoying it anymore. This is basically our situation.

 

[Saung-Hui Cho]

I’m a “recovering” drug addict. In order to get my free medication, I’m forced to go to “treatment” which involves group therapy. In one group recently, the conversation led to people talking about how they “didn’t want to die.”

I sort of wanted to chime in: what’s wrong with dying? But I didn’t want to draw attention to myself. I used to not want to die. Now I couldn’t care less. I know no one except my family gives two shits about me. Even my family probably doesn’t care, they’re too concerned with what a bunch of strangers think.

I knew one day when I saw my family in a grocery store. They pretended they didn’t even see me. Because they didn’t want to be associated with me. I don’t blame them.

 

[Modus Coperandi]

too quiet

People say this to me all the time. Fucking lol. Can't bother to have normie conversations tbh.
None of the shit they talk about matters at all.

 

[Saung-Hui Cho]

Yeah I am 37. Of course LDARing doesn't work for me anymore. It is like some guy that has started taking heroine because he realizes life won't go anywhere for him. It will take him to great heights but after 20 years he will not feel much of it anymore. He will still take the drug just to avoid feeling like complete shit and just because anything else (aka living a normal life) is even worse but he won't be enjoying it anymore. This is basically our situation.

Yep. The opposite of drug addiction isn’t sobriety. It’s connection. And no one want to be connected to an incel.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

you need to be careful around normies, some are nice but some will basically create a weird kind of 'chaos' where it's very easy for you to make a fool of yourself or give away how little experience you have with women and friendship, you don't really need to warm up to the latter kind too much because they do that shit on purpose and love it

Reading this really made me think. I'm a really quiet and reserved person, but I fell victim to this many times. It's so embarrassing to think about. Damn how I hate those people. Never again, I'll never talk to people openly ever again.

 

[virgin4life]

Yep. The opposite of drug addiction is sobriety. It’s connection. And no one want to be connected to an incel.

Yeah but tbh I do not even want to be connected anymore. I want to be left the fuck alone.

 

[acnescarcel]

i know working from home or not having to work would make life amazing

 

[virgin4life]

i know working from home or not having to work would make life amazing

Worked at home for 12 years. Didn't speak a word to anyone from 2003 to 2015. It wasn't nearly as good as you'd think. It is just very boring.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

I’m a “recovering” drug addict. In order to get my free medication, I’m forced to go to “treatment” which involves group therapy. In one group recently, the conversation led to people talking about how they “didn’t want to die.”

I sort of wanted to chime in: what’s wrong with dying? But I didn’t want to draw attention to myself. I used to not want to die. Now I couldn’t care less. I know no one except my family gives two shits about me. Even my family probably doesn’t care, they’re too concerned with what a bunch of strangers think.

I knew one day when I saw my family in a grocery store. They pretended they didn’t even see me. Because they didn’t want to be associated with me. I don’t blame them.

Death is a big taboo. If people were more accepting of death and that life is in fact shit, people wouldn't be as forced into this system of wage slavery. Above all else, the slaves must be kept alive and working.

 

[Valiant Virgin]

I feel the same way about being left alone. I'm naturally introverted and reclusive and I find it hard to relate to people. I'd happily go off to a desert island so I could be completely alone and not have to interact with a single person.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Worked at home for 12 years. Didn't speak a word to anyone from 2003 to 2015. It wasn't nearly as good as you'd think. It is just very boring.

I imagine work from home jobs compensate for the luxury of working from home by being absolutely grueling, intensive and squeezing every ounce of energy out of you.

 

[Saung-Hui Cho]

Yeah but tbh I do not even want to be connected anymore. I want to be left the fuck alone.

I think I want to be connected, but people only want to use me for resources or for virtue signaling.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Yeah I am 37. Of course LDARing doesn't work for me anymore. It is like some guy that has started taking heroine because he realizes life won't go anywhere for him. It will take him to great heights but after 20 years he will not feel much of it anymore. He will still take the drug just to avoid feeling like complete shit and just because anything else (aka living a normal life) is even worse but he won't be enjoying it anymore. This is basically our situation.

Being 37, have you been through the phase of searching for a "passion"/hobby/interest? I've been doing that for year or more now, and I've given up. Literally nothing interests me and I like nothing. I literally have nothing to do at this point. It's mental torture I tell ya.

 

[RopeMaXXer]

Being 37, have you been through the phase of searching for a "passion"/hobby/interest? I've been doing that for year or more now, and I've given up. Literally nothing interests me and I like nothing. I literally have nothing to do at this point. It's mental torture I tell ya.

Hobbies and interests are a fucking meme.
Most of the time, you're just continuing something you used to do in childhood on a whim, or something you're good at so you rinse your ego with it.
Pick something and stick to it, normalfag advice is correct here.

 

[virgin4life]

Being 37, have you been through the phase of searching for a "passion"/hobby/interest? I've been doing that for year or more now, and I've given up. Literally nothing interests me and I like nothing. I literally have nothing to do at this point. It's mental torture I tell ya.

I have tried pretty much everything but I spend 90% of my time gaming, researching the stock market and LDARing in front of my PC. Other hobbies are photography and riding my motorbike but I use less than 10% of my free time for that.

I imagine work from home jobs compensate for the luxury of working from home by being absolutely grueling, intensive and squeezing every ounce of energy out of you.

No actually it was just boring as hell. I would spend 2 hours working and then spent the rest of the day watching stupid videos on Youtube. Boring as fuck.

 

[StaroRavager]

Don’t let them catch you without your mask

 

[Deleted member 11032]

Being 37, have you been through the phase of searching for a "passion"/hobby/interest? I've been doing that for year or more now, and I've given up. Literally nothing interests me and I like nothing. I literally have nothing to do at this point. It's mental torture I tell ya.

Try gymcelling bro.

 

[HueHueBr]

if you were autonomous you would have to pretend much more. you should only please your boss if you are employed. if you're self-employed, you need to please customers and get new ones every time. if you are "yourself", you will die in misery.

 

[Deleted member 16455]

I guess i look more angry nowadays.

 

[Hikikomori]

Pray for the mass genocide of normies. We cannot coexist.

 

[LastGerman]

I knew one day when I saw my family in a grocery store. They pretended they didn’t even see me. Because they didn’t want to be associated with me. I don’t blame them.

That is really harsh.