I hate my job.
I hated college too, dont want another degree which will cost me more money, time, energy and mental capability.
I lost essentially all ambition.
Not interested in trying to date either. Too blackpilled, too ugly, too mentally instable - and its declining.
All them fucking jobs with my degree are shit I didnt look into it much when I started in 2020 doing the degree. I just thought this could be something for me - it was in fact not.
I despise coorporate world. Its just a shit show. Differently from most of you guys I still have contract to women - roasties and hags from my sector.
They are insufferable. I clearly dont need and want something like this in my life. Teen love truly is unbuyable and infinite valuable. Cant get it no more. Sad.
Everythings getting more expensive and I Listen to MillenialStream a lot. Hes right on what he says.
Its getting worse and I doubt I can like "work" anymore.
I dont want and simply CANT shove papers around and sit in front of a PC all day.
I sat in front of a PC all my life and lately a lot on the phone. Too much. Discord, .is, youtube and mainly Stockmarket.
I just cant do this fucking shit anymore. I DESPISE looking in these virtual boxes.
What even is my life from an outside POV? I essentially look 8 hours into a PC/Laptop/Tablet on work and another 4 hours all around, train, at home, in bed.
Gym is ok but its just a cope to look away from how i "spend" my life.
For 28.50€ an hour. Which is twice the minimum wage in Germoney but IS SO NOT WORTH IT.
I wont escape this "state" of existence.
Id like to do something else but for that you need a degree and if Id actually want to get a trade its harder now that I am already 25 close to 26 and have only mini jobs and now 8 months experience in my shit Box accounting job. And then I look in indeed what kinda blue collar jobs are okay and most of em obviously pay less then what i make now AFTER I would be finished with that apprentanceship.
How am I supposed to live of 38k a year in Germany? (Average BEFORE TAXES) thats what a Microtechnologist makes in the east WITH 3+ years experience.
As a single unmarried male i pay taxes that at the end of the day I have 2.1k € a month and without rent (60m2 Apartment) and other expenses I end up with 400 to 500€ a month.
I cant do anything with it. I just throw it into TSLA stock or QBTS of some shit.
Ill never have a girlfriend. I just know. I dont have friends. My family is just...gone and even if i would have contact to them THEY HATE ME -always hated me. Since birth - which is why I asked my parents so often why they had me and my mother basically wanted "a luxury pet" and my father thought id take care of them oncd their old. BRO at this point id die before you!
I never own a house which the starter modern home in Germany is now 600k - but then again I am a lonely man with no possessions. What do I need a house for anyway?
Another broken dream.
Like Smow from youtube I also dont have any desire for vacations.
All my dreams are broken. Its a shattered pile of broken dreams and ambitions that never payes off
I was a fucking straight grade A student from 5th to 12th grade.
How tf did I end up like this?
I blame my parents and the fucking fake friends of my past, I blame German Green and Liberal Politics, I blame Soyciety, I blame media and still I blame myself for going the wrong ways and doing the wrong things.
Its all over now.
I am insane and got nothing to lose or win at this point.
Literally prison is barely any different from the outside now.
WHY IS NOBODY RIOTING?!
I hated college too, dont want another degree which will cost me more money, time, energy and mental capability.
I lost essentially all ambition.
Not interested in trying to date either. Too blackpilled, too ugly, too mentally instable - and its declining.
All them fucking jobs with my degree are shit I didnt look into it much when I started in 2020 doing the degree. I just thought this could be something for me - it was in fact not.
I despise coorporate world. Its just a shit show. Differently from most of you guys I still have contract to women - roasties and hags from my sector.
They are insufferable. I clearly dont need and want something like this in my life. Teen love truly is unbuyable and infinite valuable. Cant get it no more. Sad.
Everythings getting more expensive and I Listen to MillenialStream a lot. Hes right on what he says.
Its getting worse and I doubt I can like "work" anymore.
I dont want and simply CANT shove papers around and sit in front of a PC all day.
I sat in front of a PC all my life and lately a lot on the phone. Too much. Discord, .is, youtube and mainly Stockmarket.
I just cant do this fucking shit anymore. I DESPISE looking in these virtual boxes.
What even is my life from an outside POV? I essentially look 8 hours into a PC/Laptop/Tablet on work and another 4 hours all around, train, at home, in bed.
Gym is ok but its just a cope to look away from how i "spend" my life.
For 28.50€ an hour. Which is twice the minimum wage in Germoney but IS SO NOT WORTH IT.
I wont escape this "state" of existence.
Id like to do something else but for that you need a degree and if Id actually want to get a trade its harder now that I am already 25 close to 26 and have only mini jobs and now 8 months experience in my shit Box accounting job. And then I look in indeed what kinda blue collar jobs are okay and most of em obviously pay less then what i make now AFTER I would be finished with that apprentanceship.
How am I supposed to live of 38k a year in Germany? (Average BEFORE TAXES) thats what a Microtechnologist makes in the east WITH 3+ years experience.
As a single unmarried male i pay taxes that at the end of the day I have 2.1k € a month and without rent (60m2 Apartment) and other expenses I end up with 400 to 500€ a month.
I cant do anything with it. I just throw it into TSLA stock or QBTS of some shit.
Ill never have a girlfriend. I just know. I dont have friends. My family is just...gone and even if i would have contact to them THEY HATE ME -always hated me. Since birth - which is why I asked my parents so often why they had me and my mother basically wanted "a luxury pet" and my father thought id take care of them oncd their old. BRO at this point id die before you!
I never own a house which the starter modern home in Germany is now 600k - but then again I am a lonely man with no possessions. What do I need a house for anyway?
Another broken dream.
Like Smow from youtube I also dont have any desire for vacations.
All my dreams are broken. Its a shattered pile of broken dreams and ambitions that never payes off
I was a fucking straight grade A student from 5th to 12th grade.
How tf did I end up like this?
I blame my parents and the fucking fake friends of my past, I blame German Green and Liberal Politics, I blame Soyciety, I blame media and still I blame myself for going the wrong ways and doing the wrong things.
Its all over now.
I am insane and got nothing to lose or win at this point.
Literally prison is barely any different from the outside now.
WHY IS NOBODY RIOTING?!
