Seriously, this has to stop. But what else should I do? I have no contacts, no social circle whatsoever. People are going out, perhaps even to some secret sex location, while I watch Yugioh let's plays.
How do you actually create a social circle in the first place as a 24 year old man? The mere attempt is just pathetic. I could go to some bar, I guess. Yet again, I would have to spend my money on it, which I worked hard for. I would have to go alone. So, what should I do in a bar alone? Just waste some money for some drinks? Talk to some stranger without even having anything in common with them? How does it work though? You just go there and approach a group of people or what? I am nothing but a stranger to them and on top of that I am completely alone, so they know exactly what the deal is.
It seems like, once you are out, you are truly out.
By the way, I was never been on a bar before. It is weird. It looks like I missed pretty much everything of what a teenager should have experienced in the first place.
There is actually one thing I have learnt from normal people or even leftist people. You should not limit yourself to a degree where it becomes uncomfortable for you. They live their lifes and they are enjoying it. I read their biography. They talk about of how much fun they have in their workplace, while my work has become more and more dull. I really cannot enjoy myself anymore. It is like I am watching myself from a distance. Sometimes it helps me to gain a greater perception on things, but it also can be an obstacle.
I just work to catch up, but in reality I know I just cannot since at the same time everybody is moving ahead as well. So I just compensate with hitting the gym, although it is a pretty good cope and you may achieve something greater. I hit the gym for hours and hours, yet, that cannot be the only activity I spend my time on. What else can I do which has an impact in this physical realm? What else can I do to experience pleasure or tranquility?
How do you actually create a social circle in the first place as a 24 year old man? The mere attempt is just pathetic. I could go to some bar, I guess. Yet again, I would have to spend my money on it, which I worked hard for. I would have to go alone. So, what should I do in a bar alone? Just waste some money for some drinks? Talk to some stranger without even having anything in common with them? How does it work though? You just go there and approach a group of people or what? I am nothing but a stranger to them and on top of that I am completely alone, so they know exactly what the deal is.
It seems like, once you are out, you are truly out.
By the way, I was never been on a bar before. It is weird. It looks like I missed pretty much everything of what a teenager should have experienced in the first place.
There is actually one thing I have learnt from normal people or even leftist people. You should not limit yourself to a degree where it becomes uncomfortable for you. They live their lifes and they are enjoying it. I read their biography. They talk about of how much fun they have in their workplace, while my work has become more and more dull. I really cannot enjoy myself anymore. It is like I am watching myself from a distance. Sometimes it helps me to gain a greater perception on things, but it also can be an obstacle.
I just work to catch up, but in reality I know I just cannot since at the same time everybody is moving ahead as well. So I just compensate with hitting the gym, although it is a pretty good cope and you may achieve something greater. I hit the gym for hours and hours, yet, that cannot be the only activity I spend my time on. What else can I do which has an impact in this physical realm? What else can I do to experience pleasure or tranquility?
