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I HAVE DIVINE MISSION TO PATTAYAMAXX BEFORE IM 30
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I am me. But being me is not really who I would like to be. But it's not like I can up and change everything about me. It's not possible to just alter yourself completely. Sure you can change your believes, your mannerism the way you talk and the way you walk, you can change a lot but you will always and forever be you and no matter how much you try that will never go away.
Lately I have been watching a lot of street documentaries where they ask random people questions or just random videos of street events and other kind of events. The people there are acting so NT over there. The way they talk, how they talk, I will never be able to be like this. I don't think I would be even capable of loving my own child If I ever had one. I think a life of loneliness and misery truly ruined me. There is nothing left to gather. There is no going back from this.
I don't mind it that much on one hand. Since what I'm doing to do with my life is best done in solitude anyway. But if I had a choice I would rather live out my NT normie life with a gf by my side and a loving family. Live in ignorance of everything just talking about normie shit voting for whoever the most normie leftist candidate is, etc...Reddit soybrowsing, going to house parties. Joining a college football club, small talking fucking half a day about random bullshit with my normie friends. I can't do any of that, I never had a chance. I wish I could. I wish I had a normal life not this hell I've been living. Not this torment I have to endure. I don't have a single fucking happy memory. I group my life in stages. There is the primary school stage, secondary, college, university, first job, second job, so on and so forth. Not a single segment of my life has been a pleasurable experience. It's just from one hell straight to another. I am not looking forward to anything anymore because I know it will just be worse like it always has been.
The 'it gets better' meme is probably one of the most pitifully cancerous shit I have ever been exposed to. The younger me believed it, but I was foolish then. It's just a phrase coined by people who want to virtue signal. It's an utopian concept only meant for 'mood-lift'. It is engraved into the normie culture because normie problems were never real to begin with. They keep saying this shit among themselves and later magically they all go 'yeah you are right IT GETS BETTER' after they exit their normie fake depression phase. Then that shit meme gets spread everywhere else and normies truly fucking believe it because it's a self fulfilling prophecy.
The gets better cycle -
1 - Normie complaining about bieng depressed for not fucking his gf in 3 months or having his 10th gf cheat on him or whatever other fake reason he can coin. Real people with depression don't talk about it.
2 - Normie claims to be suicidal / depressed
3 - Other normie spam 'ITTH GETUUSH BETUTER BROOO GETSUHH BETTER SOOON BRO OMG BROO GETS SO MUCH BETTER BRO OOOO BROOO
4 - Normie gets bored of larping as depressed and goes ur right gets beter haha thanks bros thanks u help me wow so good
Repeat a thousand times a day bonus points if it's a foid. Then the narrative is born that it gets better to keep coping. Fucking fake shit I hate that phrase.
Anyway, It's not all gloom and doom this life of misery gave me a unique perspective on the world. It opened a door for me that no other life could have opened. I will live the life of my choosing and ascend my mind into a higher plain of existence where such things won't bother me anymore. But the cost of this is just so much to bare.
Lately I have been watching a lot of street documentaries where they ask random people questions or just random videos of street events and other kind of events. The people there are acting so NT over there. The way they talk, how they talk, I will never be able to be like this. I don't think I would be even capable of loving my own child If I ever had one. I think a life of loneliness and misery truly ruined me. There is nothing left to gather. There is no going back from this.
I don't mind it that much on one hand. Since what I'm doing to do with my life is best done in solitude anyway. But if I had a choice I would rather live out my NT normie life with a gf by my side and a loving family. Live in ignorance of everything just talking about normie shit voting for whoever the most normie leftist candidate is, etc...Reddit soybrowsing, going to house parties. Joining a college football club, small talking fucking half a day about random bullshit with my normie friends. I can't do any of that, I never had a chance. I wish I could. I wish I had a normal life not this hell I've been living. Not this torment I have to endure. I don't have a single fucking happy memory. I group my life in stages. There is the primary school stage, secondary, college, university, first job, second job, so on and so forth. Not a single segment of my life has been a pleasurable experience. It's just from one hell straight to another. I am not looking forward to anything anymore because I know it will just be worse like it always has been.
The 'it gets better' meme is probably one of the most pitifully cancerous shit I have ever been exposed to. The younger me believed it, but I was foolish then. It's just a phrase coined by people who want to virtue signal. It's an utopian concept only meant for 'mood-lift'. It is engraved into the normie culture because normie problems were never real to begin with. They keep saying this shit among themselves and later magically they all go 'yeah you are right IT GETS BETTER' after they exit their normie fake depression phase. Then that shit meme gets spread everywhere else and normies truly fucking believe it because it's a self fulfilling prophecy.
The gets better cycle -
1 - Normie complaining about bieng depressed for not fucking his gf in 3 months or having his 10th gf cheat on him or whatever other fake reason he can coin. Real people with depression don't talk about it.
2 - Normie claims to be suicidal / depressed
3 - Other normie spam 'ITTH GETUUSH BETUTER BROOO GETSUHH BETTER SOOON BRO OMG BROO GETS SO MUCH BETTER BRO OOOO BROOO
4 - Normie gets bored of larping as depressed and goes ur right gets beter haha thanks bros thanks u help me wow so good
Repeat a thousand times a day bonus points if it's a foid. Then the narrative is born that it gets better to keep coping. Fucking fake shit I hate that phrase.
Anyway, It's not all gloom and doom this life of misery gave me a unique perspective on the world. It opened a door for me that no other life could have opened. I will live the life of my choosing and ascend my mind into a higher plain of existence where such things won't bother me anymore. But the cost of this is just so much to bare.