DONT!
My best friend hung himself 8 years ago. He never got to see the end of Sons of Anarchy. He never got to see Game of Thrones, which he would have LOVED. He hasn't heard the song "Pillow talking" by Lil Dickey... Or had a chance to hate Cardi B. He doesn't know about Thanos and the Infinity Gauntlet. He missed out on the absolute explosion of memes... My point is, if you kill yourself now, you're missing out on so many things in the future you'd love. 1 can't tell you what they are, but there's something that hasn't happened or doesn't exist yet that those you left behind would connect to you and wish you could experience. That you'd want to experience.