Can you acces pills that reduce the pain? Without prescription and that can be abused? Not like benzos:xanax and clonazepam. I don't even know what to do anymore, i tried to talk to a foid i felt maybe i had a chance, i liked her so much. I hate that i have to take physical classes and see women and people and everyone being happy and having friends. Im always in pain, i always get stressed with that shit and being there. Im already talking 150 mg of an antidepressive and 50mgs of some shit that calms me, and i'm still depressed. And i fell for a girl which i doubt will give me any chance cause she doesn't even seem interested when i said hi to her, and at the first conversation she only was nice, i guess. Everything i know contradicts me having a chance with someone like her, but i stil lie to myself. How could my life pass from being shit to being something worth living and happy. All my life reality has been proven to me. So, coming back to topic is there something that does that and doesn't feel as shitty and destroy my brain like alcohol or weed?
