Year after year yes it is. Things are not yet as bad as they could be, its still tolerable but its very tempting to just end it all. If I'd set a date in my mind when I would kill myself I could just sigh and relax until then. Now my mind is full of negative thoughts, like the fact that I'm a NEET who is too mentally unhealthy to work, when I get back into workforce I'd probably have to work until I'm in my 70's because I'm not going to get a good pension, my health is deteriorating, I don't want to talk to anyone but society forces me to participate.. It'd just be so much easier to just rope. This society hates ugly men, especially mentally ill ugly men. I have no chance.