I'm 22 years old. I live in the new caliphate of saudi germanica.
Growing up I was always the weird kid. My dad is also weird and my Uncle has 3 kids, all of them on the spectrum.
My parents are cheapskates and always send me to school in the clothes my older sisters used to wear, old shoes and shit.
I remember that I always had to stand in the back for group photos, even as early as kindergarden.
My entire life has been nothing but stress. I have no memory of highschool even though I graduated just a few years ago. I don't remember any names,
any faces, teachers, nothing. Most of the time I would just show up and disassociate for the entire time. That's virtually my biggest takeaway from 12 years of schooling,
I can switch of my brain at will like a torture victim. My inner citadel is rock solid. I can sit in the cold and rain for hours upon hours because I can just leave my body and escape into my mind.
One time I threw up in the school bus and went to school anyways.
But there do women fit into all of this shit?
Easy. Let me recount what I remember from my encounters with women in my life:
- In grade school, the tallest kid in class was beating me from behind and the cutest girls in class laughed at me while he was doing it
- they also mocked me and my other incel friend at the time. Kid had ADHD and was really autistic about star wars: the clone wars
- in highschool I was immediately singled out from any group and mostly hung out in the library with the other acne ogre
- girls would ask me if I showerd and when christmas came around and we had to give each other little presents, I got soap.
- girls would randomly call my house as a dare. I didn't understand this until I saw other incels talk about this kind of behaviour ten years later
- I have really bad posture and girls would call me quasimodo
- I had female teachers laughing at me when I was presenting things in front of class
Also, I am not tall. I'm 179 cm tall. The average for german males is 180cm, supposedely. I say supposedely because almost everyone I meet irl is taller than me. Like 80% of man and women I meet are taller than me. It's fucking ridiculous.
I spent my entire childhood and teenage years infront of a computer, on imageboards or playing video games. The cyber world is more real to me than the real world.
I remember When germany won the world cup in 2014, I was sitting inside, watching anime.
I didn't ask for much in life. I just wanted to live a quiet life. Some warmth. That's it.
Feel free to ask questions.
Growing up I was always the weird kid. My dad is also weird and my Uncle has 3 kids, all of them on the spectrum.
My parents are cheapskates and always send me to school in the clothes my older sisters used to wear, old shoes and shit.
I remember that I always had to stand in the back for group photos, even as early as kindergarden.
My entire life has been nothing but stress. I have no memory of highschool even though I graduated just a few years ago. I don't remember any names,
any faces, teachers, nothing. Most of the time I would just show up and disassociate for the entire time. That's virtually my biggest takeaway from 12 years of schooling,
I can switch of my brain at will like a torture victim. My inner citadel is rock solid. I can sit in the cold and rain for hours upon hours because I can just leave my body and escape into my mind.
One time I threw up in the school bus and went to school anyways.
But there do women fit into all of this shit?
Easy. Let me recount what I remember from my encounters with women in my life:
- In grade school, the tallest kid in class was beating me from behind and the cutest girls in class laughed at me while he was doing it
- they also mocked me and my other incel friend at the time. Kid had ADHD and was really autistic about star wars: the clone wars
- in highschool I was immediately singled out from any group and mostly hung out in the library with the other acne ogre
- girls would ask me if I showerd and when christmas came around and we had to give each other little presents, I got soap.
- girls would randomly call my house as a dare. I didn't understand this until I saw other incels talk about this kind of behaviour ten years later
- I have really bad posture and girls would call me quasimodo
- I had female teachers laughing at me when I was presenting things in front of class
Also, I am not tall. I'm 179 cm tall. The average for german males is 180cm, supposedely. I say supposedely because almost everyone I meet irl is taller than me. Like 80% of man and women I meet are taller than me. It's fucking ridiculous.
I spent my entire childhood and teenage years infront of a computer, on imageboards or playing video games. The cyber world is more real to me than the real world.
I remember When germany won the world cup in 2014, I was sitting inside, watching anime.
I didn't ask for much in life. I just wanted to live a quiet life. Some warmth. That's it.
Feel free to ask questions.
