Discussion Incel Trait: Your Life Is a Blur

[Chinkbonics]

I'm almost 20, and I've spent virtually the entirety of my life since 2 years old in this same fucking room on a computer, same spot, almost the same desk. If we compared ourselves 2020 to 2015 to 2010 there would probably be a minuscule amount of change. Time slips away from your reach no matter what you try to do & what you try to accomplish. Days that turn into weeks that turn into months. As we age, it will only fly faster. Normies live solely in the present while we're often stuck in the past. The beginning of high school still feels like yesterday to me, and I know I'll be in my 30s soon wondering what the fuck happened to my college years while I rot; presumably in the same room, same chair location assuming I haven't committed suicide by then.

Normal people have complete photo albums of their adventures, their milestones, their achievements. I've noticed that photos of many of us are exceedingly rare; and I like to think of this as a representation of our legacy. We leave no trace, and will die having left no trace.

 

[Gymcelled]

I have no pics of myself, no souvenirs, nothing. My life was spent either coping through escapism, grinding self improvement or just having a bad time. The latter my brain tried to forget and bury down the pits of my memory.

I really don't remember much, i feel like i haven't lived. Ironically enough death is still coming for us whether we've felt like we've lived or not

 

[Deleted member 21219]

I'll be in my 30s soon wondering what the fuck happened to my college years while I rot; presumably in the same room, same chair location assuming I haven't committed suicide by then.

Dam this hits me hard.

 

[Chinkbonics]

I have no pics of myself, no souvenirs, nothing. My life was spent either coping through escapism, grinding self improvement or just having a bad time. The latter my brain tried to forget and bury down the pits of my memory.

I really don't remember much, i feel like i haven't lived. Ironically enough death is still coming for us whether we've felt like we've lived or not

Normies even when they've wageslaved still somehow feel fulfilled. We will never truly live. I am incapable of wageslaving or living a respectable life according to society because of the sheer amount of copes available that are so powerful for us losers in particular. Normal people don't have a reason to cope because they're too busy living their lives.

 

[Gymcelled]

@Chinkbonics do you also have/feel a disconnect with your age? I'm in my late 20s and I still don't feel like im even 18 or 20. My mind can't accept I'm an adult because I haven't lived like one. I feel like my mind is stuck mentally. I also can't accept I'm getting older.

When someone irl asks me my age I always freeze and have to truly remember for a few seconds.

 

[Chinkbonics]

@Chinkbonics do you also have/feel a disconnect with your age? I'm in my late 20s and I still don't feel like im even 18 or 20. My mind can't accept I'm an adult because I haven't lived like one. I feel like my mind is stuck mentally. I also can't accept I'm getting older.

When someone irl asks me my age I always freeze and have to truly remember for a few seconds.

I accidentally told someone I was 17 years of age a few days ago. I often forget that I'm apparently an adult. I still don't feel like an adult. I feel like a little kid trapped in a 19 year old's body.

 

[Deleted member 11159]

I accidentally told someone I was 17 years of age a few days ago. I often forget that I'm apparently an adult. I still don't feel like an adult. I feel like a little kid trapped in a 19 year old's body.

I'm the same. I feel like mentally i'm still stuck at 14/ 15. I'm 19 too and other 19 year olds just seem so much older than me. On the rare occasion that I am around other people my age, I always feel like one of their friend's little brother or something.

 

[Gyros_Pretcel]

Wait a decade and see how things develop.

 

[Saudade]

Chads and all young women already have amazing hopeful big plans for the future that they will fulfill easily because of enormous confidence and connections, getting jobs and cruising through their lives cause of looks, going to worthless universities just to have fun, having parties and being promiscuous, sharing their careless lifestyle on social media, currently spending time on beaches, in clubs and bars with their grins of superiority unaware that life dealt a great hand to them, seeing the world with smile on their faces cause it always treated them well, they never knew different....

Meanwhile i am rotting in my home posting on obscure forums and playing S.T.A.L.K.E.R on a decade old laptop while working a part time job that only gives 1/3 of average salary here. My thoughts revolve around same things constantly, only memories i have are from childhood, my dreams for the future are simple and i only want to be your average person, but every time i try to improve on one thing the two things come out of nowhere to put me down and remind me to know my place.

Two different universes..... Brootal.

 

[catcel]

@Chinkbonics @Gymcelled
28 y.o with a teenage mindset here..
i am still stuck in my teens.
The fact that I've been a NEET my whole life and living with parents , doesnt help either.

I remember larping as a 15 yo in 2010s { back when i was reaching adulthood . officially } and even now i do it sometimes on discord and such...
its' quite torturous not being able to be yourself, you know?
no one will ever get to know the real me . aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

 

[Gymcelled]

I accidentally told someone I was 17 years of age a few days ago. I often forget that I'm apparently an adult. I still don't feel like an adult. I feel like a little kid trapped in a 19 year old's body.

I'm the same. I feel like mentally i'm still stuck at 14/ 15. I'm 19 too and other 19 year olds just seem so much older than me. On the rare occasion that I am around other people my age, I always feel like one of their friend's little brother or something.

It doesn't get any better. Or at least it didn't for me. At this rate I'll be in my 30s and still feel like i'm 18 or 20

@Chinkbonics @Gymcelled
28 y.o with a teenage mindset here..
i am still stuck in my teens.
The fact that I've been a NEET my whole life and living with parents , doesnt help either.

I remember larping as a 15 yo in 2010s { back when i was reaching adulthood . officially } and even now i do it sometimes on discord and such...
its' quite torturous not being able to be yourself, you know?
no one will ever get to know the real me . aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I feel you dude. How can you feel like you're an adult when you haven't lived the life of one? My brain will never accept that i'm an adult because i still haven't kissed or hugged a girl

 

[Chinkbonics]

I'm 19 too and other 19 year olds just seem so much older than me.

They even SOUND older than me. Everyone voicemogs me. Not only do I sound like a rice, I also sound like I'm still going through puberty, and my nasally voice is further compounded by my chronic nasal issues. I'm coping by thinking I'll sound different by the time I'm 25-30, but years have passed and my voice has stayed the same.

 

[Deleted member 5712]

my life literally hasn't changed since i was 17. started wageslaving and BOOM 20 years went by. reality fucking sucks for ugly guys

 

[Chinkbonics]

I will be the failed child. 2 older siblings. My brother is like an entrepreneur & is married to a woman with a good career from a rich family. My sister obviously is a foid so even if she is a fuck up she'll still get everything she wanted out of life. My parents are asking me to find a job, find a woman, etc. etc. The questions and demands are escalating with each passing month.

I'm incapable of everything that actually matters in real life. I couldn't get a job in a shitty fucking restaurant+retail store when I tried to apply. I broke down in anxiety several times in drivers' tests on the spot. My grades are mediocre, even when I cheat. I'm too autistic to postmaxx and therefore can't even get true acceptance in an incel forum.

I don't know what my parents will think of me when I will have inevitably failed. I don't want to know. I don't want to fucking live to that point. I swear to God I don't want to know.

 

[Gymcelled]

my life literally hasn't changed since i was 17. started wageslaving and BOOM 20 years went by. reality fucking sucks for ugly guys

Brutal

I will be the failed child. 2 older siblings. My brother is like an entrepreneur & is married to a woman with a good career from a rich family. My sister obviously is a foid so even if she is a fuck up she'll still get everything she wanted out of life. My parents are asking me to find a job, find a woman, etc. etc. The questions and demands are escalating with each passing month.

I'm incapable of everything that actually matters in real life. I couldn't get a job in a shitty fucking restaurant+retail store when I tried to apply. I broke down in anxiety several times in drivers' tests on the spot. My grades are mediocre, even when I cheat. I'm too autistic to postmaxx and therefore can't even get true acceptance in an incel forum.

I don't know what my parents will think of me when I will have inevitably failed. I don't want to know. I don't want to fucking live to that point. I swear to God I don't want to know.

Brutal to know that your siblings won at life and you were destined to fail. But at least the hopes of your parents aren't all weighing down on you only. I'm an only child so the lineage of my parents stops here, they get to be really disappointed

 

[Deleted member 28903]

This isn't my experience at all. I'm 20 and high school feels like infinitely long ago, like it was an entirely different life almost. Even the pre-Corona world which existed like 6 months ago feels like it was forever ago. The times of not wearing a mask and not having all these dumbass laws feel so distant.

 

[Alone75]

It's going to be one big blur then death, it'll be like I was never born at all.

 

[Copexodius Maximus]

I'm almost 20, and I've spent virtually the entirety of my life since 2 years old in this same fucking room on a computer, same spot, almost the same desk. If we compared ourselves 2020 to 2015 to 2010 there would probably be a minuscule amount of change. Time slips away from your reach no matter what you try to do & what you try to accomplish. Days that turn into weeks that turn into months. As we age, it will only fly faster. Normies live solely in the present while we're often stuck in the past. The beginning of high school still feels like yesterday to me, and I know I'll be in my 30s soon wondering what the fuck happened to my college years while I rot; presumably in the same room, same chair location assuming I haven't committed suicide by then.

Normal people have complete photo albums of their adventures, their milestones, their achievements. I've noticed that photos of many of us are exceedingly rare; and I like to think of this as a representation of our legacy. We leave no trace, and will die having left no trace.

mogs me at having a computer at 2 years of age

 

[Chinkbonics]

Brutal

Brutal to know that your siblings won at life and you were destined to fail. But at least the hopes of your parents aren't all weighing down on you only. I'm an only child so the lineage of my parents stops here, they get to be really disappointed

I'm so sorry bro. Life on this planet is so fucking cruel. Everyone and every normie believes that inceldom is all just about not being able to have sex/having female attention. Nobody but us will truly understand that it's so much more than that. The aforemented are simply symptoms of having been dealt a cruel hand from the beginning of life.

 

[Gymcelled]

I'm so sorry bro. Life on this planet is so fucking cruel. Everyone and every normie believes that inceldom is all just about not being able to have sex/having female attention. Nobody but us will truly understand that it's so much more than that. The aforemented are simply symptoms of having been dealt a cruel hand from the beginning of life.

Yes. If it was just about sex i'd just pay a hooker. They're legal, cheap and close to where i live. But it's not the point.

It's the lack of sex, dating, friendship, meaningful positive experiences etc.

 

[Deleted member 14577]

it's a blur because everyday is the same. no social events or adventures or whatever normies do.

 

[InMyCellInHell]

my life literally hasn't changed since i was 17. started wageslaving and BOOM 20 years went by. reality fucking sucks for ugly guys

Yep. This was for me too. I spend my life in the past, thinking about my "friends" that have probably forgotten I exist. It's just a numb, blurry feeling to be awake or alive nowadays. I have trouble sleeping and have no energy to get out of bed since I know my worthless existence will be even worse once I get up. All I ever did was browse this computer and wonder when it will mercifully be over.

 

[Transcended Trucel]

indeed we need new xp to get new memories otherwise lie blends into Jewish blur

 

[Deleted member 818]

Seeing incels a year or more younger than me makes me feel old

 

[Pengwin]

Every day feels the same for me.