By this, I obviously mean family life and relationship to parents/siblings etc. For example, my home life has sucked for my entire existence. I was brought into the world as an accident by a mother who was not financially or mentally stable enough to be ready for it, and by a father who at the time didn't even want a kid. My parents separated early and my father was an inept schizo who could barely take care of himself, yet he had a house and I could babysit myself with Skytv. My mother was much more caring, but had zero money, so was constantly moving from place so life constantly felt unstable. My father died when I was young, and the partner of my mother, while an ok guy, was never a true father figure for me, so in effect it was like I was raised by a single mother (explains why I am almost entirely lacking in masculine traits and have to try and absorb some faint idea of masculinity through internet role models like Sam Hyde etc). We always had to rentcuck, and moving around was awful. When I was in my mid teens we were homeless for some time because the landlord wanted to sell. This resulted in me and my mother having to stay at a friend's house for a few months. Massive blow to my ego but hey, could have ended up in some hostel where I would have been bummed, or in some social housing where I would have been robbed and stabbed, so it was better than that. Oh, and I should note that my 'step father' just went off and stayed with his own family during that time, effectively abandoning us, because he was never a real man and couldn't provide for shit for us. My retard mother of course still took him back.
Basically, the lack of stability and guidance in life has left me as an ineffective retard. I have intelligence on some level, but no willpower, confidence, masculinity etc to utilise it. I now have to try and make up for the lack of proper parenting as an adult, and I am developmentally so far behind my peers, although I have the cynicism of an old man after being blackpilled by the internet (still better than being an ignorant bluepill retard I might add). Now my mother and step father are on the brink of breaking up for good, which would leave him a lonely old man and leave her as a long post-wall spinster with retarded foid confidence not knowing that she doesn't have even 1% of the smv of twenty years ago.
There is probably only bleakness in my future unless I can somehow summon some confidence and willpower out of my fucking ass. All this because I was brought into the world as an accident, out of wedlock and out of stability. I'm sure many of you can relate.
Basically, the lack of stability and guidance in life has left me as an ineffective retard. I have intelligence on some level, but no willpower, confidence, masculinity etc to utilise it. I now have to try and make up for the lack of proper parenting as an adult, and I am developmentally so far behind my peers, although I have the cynicism of an old man after being blackpilled by the internet (still better than being an ignorant bluepill retard I might add). Now my mother and step father are on the brink of breaking up for good, which would leave him a lonely old man and leave her as a long post-wall spinster with retarded foid confidence not knowing that she doesn't have even 1% of the smv of twenty years ago.
There is probably only bleakness in my future unless I can somehow summon some confidence and willpower out of my fucking ass. All this because I was brought into the world as an accident, out of wedlock and out of stability. I'm sure many of you can relate.
