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That's my only motivator I've ever had. Every since I was young. Ive always been so extremely angry, that's all I felt in between periods of rotting and feeling hopeless and sad.
That's honestly the only reason I played contact sports too. I couldn't give less a shit about winning or losing. I pretended I did to blend in with the team and NTs of course but I was only actually there to try and hurt as much as the opposing team as I could. That always took priority over winning or actually following plays. I remember one time I sacked the qb as he was about to pass and kicked him in the face with cleats after dropping him, got a "unnecessary roughness" call but didn't care, I'm still riding off that high as pathetic as it is now, I am aware how pathetic this is.
There is no escape from this, it only gets worse every year you get older
That's honestly the only reason I played contact sports too. I couldn't give less a shit about winning or losing. I pretended I did to blend in with the team and NTs of course but I was only actually there to try and hurt as much as the opposing team as I could. That always took priority over winning or actually following plays. I remember one time I sacked the qb as he was about to pass and kicked him in the face with cleats after dropping him, got a "unnecessary roughness" call but didn't care, I'm still riding off that high as pathetic as it is now, I am aware how pathetic this is.
There is no escape from this, it only gets worse every year you get older
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