I'm a 100% serious when i say that even the smallest inconvenience has the potentiel to cause tremendous ammounts of stress in me. And by small inconvenience i'm refering to stuff like, a simple change in plans, receiving a pm, sudden weather changes ( i'm srsly not kidding here) basically anything that requires me to adapt to a new situation, without having any time to prepear myself for it.
You probably already heard the saying, "the only constant in life is change" and i fucking hate it, i always hated it, since i was a little child. Because my brain associates change with new unexpeted events that have the potentiel to cause me stress.
I'm not sure how someone like me is supposed to function in our fast paced modern society. School, even if you take away the bullying that i had to endure, was something incrediable stressfull for me. I can't even possibly imagine a job, that wouldn't make me feel stressed out.
I guess i'm just not suited for life. I fucking hate stress and responsibility. But a lot of people tell me that without those things you aren't actually alive, you just exist. And they're probably right. But frankly speaking i don't even wanna be "alive" and neither do i wanna exist. But i guess that between those two options, just existing seems to be the lesser evil.
You probably already heard the saying, "the only constant in life is change" and i fucking hate it, i always hated it, since i was a little child. Because my brain associates change with new unexpeted events that have the potentiel to cause me stress.
I'm not sure how someone like me is supposed to function in our fast paced modern society. School, even if you take away the bullying that i had to endure, was something incrediable stressfull for me. I can't even possibly imagine a job, that wouldn't make me feel stressed out.
I guess i'm just not suited for life. I fucking hate stress and responsibility. But a lot of people tell me that without those things you aren't actually alive, you just exist. And they're probably right. But frankly speaking i don't even wanna be "alive" and neither do i wanna exist. But i guess that between those two options, just existing seems to be the lesser evil.
